Letters To My Mate

Chapter Twelve

TWELVE (Ethan's POV)

'Thank you for wanting me, for loving me and for always being there for me whenever I need someone. I'm glad that it is you who can make me smile on a day-to-day basis. I'm also glad you won't be leaving me because I need you in my life. You are the anchor that can keep me in check and keep my feet on the ground – you are my anchor and I thank you for that. I can't wait to meet you although I admit, I am very nervous.

I love you too,

Please stay safe<3

Your Rach xxxx'

I love this girl – my soul mate. She loves me, too. I can't believe it. I must have had the biggest grin on my face because, as I looked up, I realised that Logan was looking at me strangely.

"Dude, what's up with you?" Logan asked.

"She loves me too, man." I exclaimed; the grin plastered on my face widening.

"That's great!" he said, as he patted my back and sat on the ground beside me. "Do you think I could write a letter to her and give it to you?"

"Why?" I questioned, my eyebrows raised in caution.

"Just because – you can read it after, if you'd like."

"No it's cool man. Just give me your letter so that I can post it later today."

"Thanks a lot, dude."

I was still confused as to why he wanted to write a letter to my mate but I trusted him; he is my Beta and my best friend so I know that he would not steal my mate. I would, of course, have to read it to check that he hasn't told any embarrassing stories about me.

I carefully placed her letter in the box that was filled with previous letters that we had been exchanging – these letters were my entire life, I don't know what I would do if something were to happen to them. I pulled out my wallet and unfolded it to see the picture she had sent me; she was beautiful. I couldn't believe that she was mine and that I would be able to meet her soon. My whole life has lead up to this – I had been looking for her for my whole life and now I could finally call her mine.

I can't believe that she said she loves me back - I didn't expect her to fall for me too. The already massive grin that graced my face widened at the thought of her beautiful smile and her hazel eyes that shone and sparkled in the light. She was the light of my life and I can't help but think about her all day, every day. She could make me laugh until my stomach hurts, even within the letters that we shared – but she was stubborn and refused to believe how special she was. She didn't know it yet, but she was my anchor too.

My heart races every time I hear her name and even every time I think of her. Now that I know her, I could not imagine my life without her in it. There are millions of words in the English language yet I could not find the words to describe my love for her. I sound like a love-struck teenager but I could not help it; Rachel was my soul mate and she was made for me, as I was for her. Both my wolf and I would not be able to live without her.

'Ra-Ra,

Yes, that nickname is going to stay forever - Mainly because it suits you well, but also because I want a name that is special to us and one that no one else calls you. Also, because you expressed to me how much you don't like it and I enjoy annoying you, my love.

I am wishing for the next month to go by as quickly as it possibly could so that I can see you as soon as I can – I can't wait for the moment I fly in and see your beautiful face as we do one of those cliché reunion run-and-hugs in the airport. I hope you could be there (I'm expecting huge signs and confetti!) to meet me and I don't think that I would be able to let you go. Maybe we can run away together – We don't have to run away, of course, because honestly I do not want to leave my family and my friends behind and you would probably be reluctant, too. I probably sound too forward to you when you're reading this - oops... - but I am considering asking you to move in with me when I return home. I, luckily, live close to the address that I've been sending these letters to (It must be fate! ;)) and I do honestly love you and want to be in your life. I know it may sound crazy, since we have yet to meet, but these letters have brought us close together and you will understand more in the future – when we meet.

This morning, before I started writing this letter, Logan weirdly requested for permission to write you a letter. I didn't ask what his purpose was in writing a letter but he is my best friend and I trust him not to try and steal you away from me. His letter should be somewhere in the same envelope you found this one...

My mother sends out a package once every month filled with pointless things that are probably not needed but she loves to cheer up the mood in the conditions we are stationed in. You'd have to meet her – she is a crazy woman and I think you'd get along well. Anyway, she sent out two books; one book titled '100 best jokes' and the other titled 'finding your soul mate.' I have a feeling these books are clues that I need to find a sense of humour and also find a girl in my life. But anyway, I decided to share a few jokes with you because the thought that I would be the cause of a smile being present on your face makes me extremely happy.

"How do NASA organise a party?

...They planet." Haha, get it? They plan it... plan-et...

"Why was the computer late for work?

...Because it had a hard drive."

"What happened to the Italian Chef?

...He pasta-way." Wow - Passed away... pasta-way.

I wish I could take the credit for these jokes and pretend that I made them up rather than took them out of a book, but I do not have that great of a sense of humour. I hope these made you smile your beautiful smile and I wish I could be there to see that smile that lights up my world.

To end my letter, I thought I'd share a quote from the other book my mother decided would help me in life. "You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams. – Dr. Seuss." This describes me and you perfectly, I believe.

This letter has been the sappiest of them all, but I will do anything to make you happy. Your letters in the past two weeks have made me further believe that you are not completely happy and something is happening; I will not pressure you into telling me exactly what caused this until you want me to know such things. The worst of all is that I am not there to cheer you up – until next month.

I love you,

Ethan xxx'

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"Last chance to hand your letters in!" I heard a voice announce.

I rushed over to Logan, grabbing the letter out of his hand and forcing it into the envelope I was holding tightly – I needed to hurry up and hand my letter in or Rachel would receive it late and worry that something had happened to me. I would hate to make her so worried for no reason.

Sealing the envelope, I quickly passed it to the man who had the job of returning every week to pick up our box of letters and post them to their recipients. I doubt Rachel would enjoy that job – even though it would mean that she would be able to see me every week, she would hate having her ears pop due to the pressure of the continuous flying back and forth. These little things about her make me love her.

After ensuring that the letter was safe in the box with the others, I walked casually towards Logan where everyone was playing a game of football – or Soccer as Americans may call it. It was days like these where we could all be happy and forget what was going on around us; we did not have to think of the possibility of death the next day or the day after that. I shook the negative thoughts out of my mind and jogged the rest of the way to join one of the teams playing football, everyone cheering as the game kicked-off.

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Not the best chapter... I know. But, I wanted to show how Ethan thinks of Rachel and basically what was happening with him... The next few chapters should be a lot longer and more interesting!

But they've both said 'I love you'! Finally! Did you expect Rachel to say it back to him, though?

Thank you for reading and don't be afraid to comment and vote! thank you :') x