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"58.75" the man said. I handed him the money. "Here's your change" I nodded, grabbing my bag and walking out. I took a bottle from the case quickly opening it and drinking it. Walking back I ended up already drinking three.
I stopped at the front door. Skylar was still here. And I was even more drunk then before. But drunk me doesn't care. I knocked on the door, taking another gulp.
"How much have you had to drink" Rylee looked serious while opening the door. "Beers just three" I smirked. "Alright you really need to get to sleep. Do you want me to help you to your room" she asked. I shrugged. "No, I'm good" "Okay, Do you want me to take these to the kitchen" she tried taking the bag. "No, I paid for these with my money." I snatched it back. "Luke, your getting out of control" she glared. I shrugged.
"This needs to stop" "I'm fine!" I stormed past her pushing her out of the way. Causing them all to stare. I always found myself staring at her, Skylar. She avoided looking. Almost as if she was gonna say something but didn't. I shook my head. I was curious. Like what was she gonna say? I'm just weird like that. Always thinking.
I stamped up stairs slamming my door shut, falling face first on my bed. "She probably thinks I'm a fucking mess. That I'm vulnerable with out her. Well I'm not. I don't need her, I never needed her" I mumbled into my pillow. Opening another beer.
"She was the one who needed me" I scoffed. "I- I'm going out for a drive tomorrow. And I'm gonna go to the river, in the woods. By that big ass tree" I laughed. I didn't know why it was funny. But it was a big tree.
"That's you and hers spot" someone walked in. I didn't bother looking up to find out who it was, cause I assumed they'd end up leaving like everyone else. "I won't leave until I know you're okay, Luke. And your obviously not. Look, in the 2 years you and Skylar were together, you became one of my best friends. And I care about the both of you. But you aren't doing so good. To be honest we're all worried for you" it was Rylee.
"2 years, 8 months and 6 days" I corrected her. "I know you miss her" she tried to comfort me. "Well she doesn't miss me" I shrugged. "She misses you, obviously. She told me you were the best think she had ever had" I looked up. "No," I shook my head. That couldn't be right.
"She won't give me a reason as to why she broke things off. But at this state I dint think she'll even want to be friends with you" I rolled my eyes. "Friends don't break other friends hearts." "She had a reason" and that's when I snapped.
All the anger I've had built up inside these past few weeks was now yelling at Rylee. "SHE HAD NO REASON. IF THERE WAS ANY FUCKING REASON AS TO WHY SHE LEFT ME, I'D LOVE TO HEAR IT. SHE CLEARLY IS OKAY. SHE DOESN'T SEEM AFFECTED BY ANY OF THIS. I'M A DRUNK. I'M A SCREW UP. I FUCKED UP WHAT ME AND SKYLAR HAD. I KNOW IT WAS MY FAULT. SO DON'T TRY TO COME I'M HERE AND COMFORT ME. I FEEL LIKE DIEING RIGHT NOW. I LOVED HER SO MUCH. I MEAN I SPENT 2 YEARS OF MY LIFE WITH HER. I LOVED HER. I DID EVERYTHING RIGHT! SHE BROKE MY HEART, THEN SHE COMES HERE TO HANG OUT WITH THE GUYS? LIKE I DON'T EVEN EXIST. SHE'S A BITCH! SHE FUCKED UP, NOT ME. THERE'S NO WAY IN HELL WE WILL EVER BE FRIENDS AGAIN" I yelled.
Rylee shook her head. "Stop being such a prick Luke. if she didn't care would she have helped you earlier tonight, when you were drunk. if she didn't care would she have been there for you when got so drunk you couldn't walk straight, and cared for you all night? if she didn't care would she have taken the fall for you when you crashed the car. She went to jail Luke. And yeah you bailed her out but that's it. You can't possibly be mad at her for leaving you" She spat walking out.
I heard the front door slam shut. "Well you scared them all off, Luke" Ashton yelled up the stairs. "I don't care" I got out my phone quickly going on Twitter.
@SkylarBaxter: That did NOT just happen!
@RyleeRy: It wasn't right. What he said @SkylarBaxter
@SkylarBaxter: If that's how he felt. At least I know now...
@RyleeRy: @Ashton5SOS
@Ashton5SOS: It wasn't, but he's not doing so well. It hurt him.
@Michael5SOS: @SkylarBaxter he didn't mean it. He's just mad.
@SkylarBaxter: I'm over it already
@Calum5SOS: The house is a reck...
I scoffed at all their tweets. Then decided to tweet something myself.
@Luke5SOS: I can see everything you say you know. And she's not innocent. It's not just me!
@RyleeRy: You snapped on me. And called her out. All she did was clean off your hand.
@Luke5SOS: So we're just talking about tonight? What about 3 weeks ago?
@RyleeRy: Enough Luke! She can see everything as well. She moved on!
I looked at the tweet. "She moved on" I questioned. Going on all the other social media things she had. Instagram.
"I finally moved on <3 I'm actually happy again" with a picture of her giving some guy a hug. I glared at the screen. "Chump" I laughed.
@Luke5SOS: To all our fans I'm fine. Just going through a bit of a faze. But she moved on, so I have to move on. Thanks for all the love guys xx
I set my phone down falling back to sleep. Turns out I was lying. I'm not fine. I'm far from it. And I'm not going through a bit of a faze. I have no idea how long it will take. And I doubt I'll move on any time soon. But I didn't want the fans to be worried.
I went back to sleep. Not really knowing what else to do.
"Ahhh, Luke stop" Skylar giggled, running away. "Never" I threw another water balloon at her. She screamed, only causing me to laugh harder. "Your going to get it Hemmings!" she glared, now running after me with water balloons. I started running towards the tree. But she tackled me down. Us both laughing.
"Were you gonna hide in the tree?" "No I was gonna hug it" I said sarcastically. She threw the water balloon at me. And rolled beside me. I smiled looking over at her. This was only our 1st year together. And this was the 1 year anniversary.
She looked back at me and smiled as well. "Hi" "Hi" she laughed. "What is your favorite thing in the whole wide world" she asked randomly. "You" it was cheesy, I know. "Awww," she pecked my cheek.
"What about you?" "Obviously You!" she mumbled. I laughed. "You know, I thought that having a girlfriend would be bad. No offense, I just thought it would be hard to schedule the band, and family and you. But it's actually pretty great. And you make me happy. I really couldn't ask for anyone better" I grabbed her hand, intertwining our fingers. She just smiled. I understand, if she were to say that I wouldn't know how to respond.
"I love you, Luke" "I love you too, Skylar"
The next morning
I woke up, knowing I had to go to the studio today. I took a shower, put some cloths on. Did all my hygiene stuff. And walked out. Avoiding My phone cause it would only make me mad. "Morning" Calum waved, finishing off his breakfast. I nodded, going to the cabinets for stuff to make some toast.
"Sleep well" he asked. I thought about the dream I had last night. I practically relived me and her 1 year anniversary. I didn't like it. I couldn't escape and of these memories with her. And it literally killed me. I nodded again walking away.
He walked up stairs to do whatever. Leaving me alone by myself. Watching whatever was on and eating my toast.
I looked down at my cut up hand. It didn't hurt as much as you'd think. Just when it was under water, or you were to pressure on it it stung. "Ready?" Ashton asked, walking down the stairs. I nodded putting my plate in the kitchen.
"What are we doing today" I didn't check my phone so I was unsure. "Recording a few songs" he replied walking out the door and hopped into a car. I followed behind him.
At the studio we recorded about 3 or 4 songs. "That's all for today. But Luke you have to stay. You missed a lot. Unless you want to make up for it another day. But this album will be released on time!" He said sternly. I nodded walking into the small room again. I'll just work a lot. Then it won't remind me of her.
