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Scene 1 - Act 4: October Of Overthinking

A/N: I PUT THE SONG CYRUS IS GONNA SING ON THE LINK THINGY SO YOU CAN LISTEN TO IT WHILE YOU READ IF YA WANT NOW ENJOY MY CRAPPY STORY

Cyrus's POV

A few weeks pass and all of a sudden it's October my god awful birth month. Every year on my birthday which happens to be on Halloween my mom plans a "surprise party". It honestly pretty sucks since the last two times I've almost had a panic attack. But my mom thank god is only inviting close friends and maybe a bit of family. But that's a while away so just focus on school and not other stuff.  Ambrosia has been more protective and supportive of me since I told her I'm gay.

The past couple of weeks I've noticed Rowan hanging around some girl. I dont really talk to people that much so I have no idea who she is but it seems like Rowans trying to get with her or something. I honestly should have expected this he's a cute hot guy he's fucking straight. My god I'm an idiot. 

After school I go into my room and isolate myself from the rest of the world for a while. I put on some music and "Fake You Out" By Twenty One Pilots starts playing I unconsciously start singing.

[I want to drive away

In the night, headlights call my nameI, I'll never be, be what you see inside
You say I'm not alone, but I am petrified
You say that you are close, is close the closest star?
You just feel twice as far, you just feel twice as farAnd I'll fall
And I'll break
And I'll fake
All I wannaAnd I'll fall down
And I'll break down
And I'll fake you out
All I wannaI'm so afraid
Of what you have to say
'Cause I am quiet now
And silence gives you spaceI'll never be, be what you see inside
You say I'm not alone, but I am petrified
You say that you are close, is close the closest star?
You just feel twice as far, you just feel twice as farAnd I'll fall
And I'll break
And I'll fake
All I wannaAnd I'll fall down
And I'll break down
And I'll fake you out
All I wannaIt's the same game today as it always is
I don't give these places fake my name explaining this
And the wrists of my mind have the bleeding lines
That remind me of all the times
I have committed
Dirty dirty crimes that are perfectly form-fitted
To what I've done and what I'm doing
I'm brewing and losing and spewing infusing
And believe me that's what all the kids are doing
What kids are doing are killing themselves
They feel they have no control of their prisoner's cell
And if you're one of them then you're one of me
And you would do almost anything just to feel free
Am I right, of course I am
Convince me otherwise would take all night
Before you walk away, there's one more thing I want to say
Our brains are sick but that's okayI'll fake you out
I'll fake you out
And I'll break down
I'll fake you outAnd I'll fall
And I'll break
And I'll fake
All I wannaI'll fake you out
I'll fake you out
I'll fake you out
And I'll break downI'll fake you out
I'll fake you out
I'll fake you out
And I'll break downAll I wanna
Yeah, and I'll fall down
And I'll break down
And I'll fake you out
All I wanna
Yeah, and I'll fall down
And I'll break down
And I'll fake you out
All I wannaI'm so afraid
Of what you have to say
'Cause I am quiet now
And silence gives you space]

After I finish the song I hear clapping and instantly freak out.

"That was amazing!!" Says Rowan who's climbing through MY FUCKING WINDOW

"How long were you there?!?!?!" I yell.

"A bit after you started" He says with a grin "But that was amazing!!"

"Not really... anyway lets just change the topic" I say then start overthinking "oh god should I ask him about the girl? maybe its a bad idea crap what if I ruin things for him" 

"uh...whats with the girl you've been hanging out with recently?" I say nervously

"Oh Polly?" He says with a bit of blush on his face. "She's really nice and we have a lot of things in common...I kinda like her"

Well here comes my locked away depression that I spent 2 years working on. Shit why did I ask?? God I'm an idiot.

"Well uh...I have to go I'll cya tomorrow!" Rowans says as he climbs out my window and shuts it.

I then shut the blinds and curtains then lay on my bed. I kinda feel like crying but I shouldn't I should have expected this to happen he's straight. Or at least bi but he clearly doesn't like me and I don't think he ever will. I start tearing up then start breaking down like usual. 

"shit..." I mumble while quietly sobbing so no one in the house hears me. Fuck what if my dad comes in or my brother. I get up and lock the door then lay back down. Why am I this dumb no one that I know of is gay or anything. Hell no one likes me anyway. These thoughts go around my mind for a few hours then I fall asleep.