Insanity.

~Warm Arms~

Y/N POV:

"Cooorey!"I called knocking on the door of his nearby apartment. My face numb from the chilling air and contrasting hot tears. Not even 10 seconds past before my tall, ash blonde best friend opened the door into his lavender smelling apartment.
"(Y/N) babes!" Corey said opening his arms for me to tumble into. I gladly fell into his warm embrace and took a deep breath of his flowery scent. The air clogging my throat came unstuck as I sobbed into his thin blue shirt.
"What's up doll? Where's Daniel?" He asked holding me tight into his muscley chest.
"We..broke it off Cor." I murmured.
"Oh em gee! I'm so sorry girl! I love you more than any fuckboy ever will," Corey said kissing the top of my head. "Come inside, get some pjs on, I'll get the cocoa and real housewives and you'll explain everything."
"I love you Corey." I cried holding him tight.
"I love you more (y/n)" he replied holding me in his warm arms.
*time skip*
"So I slapped him and walked away." I finished, blowing on my hot chocolate.
"I hated Daniel from the start. I'm the only man you need right now honey." Corey replied, sorrow in his green eyes.
All I could do was nod. I knew Corey meant well, trying to console me but Dan was different. I was certainly in love but now that love has shattered, the flame dead, the spark dull.

I dreamt of Dan that night. It was June 15th, we were out in  London.
~flashback~
"Oh em gee! Its Dan Howell! Ugh Becky come on stop being shy!" A blonde teenage girl squealed pulling along her brunette friend. She and her friend approached me and Dan while we were licking mint icecreams at Trafalgar Square.
"Hey!" Dan said awkwardly as the blonde girl pulled herself into his chest.
"I'm Jessica and this is Be- ugh Becky just come here one minute!" Jessica squeaked.
"Whos this dan?" The teen said eyeing me up and down.
"Oh,um" dan scratched his neck. He hadn't told his viewers about me yet.
"Wait...ARE YOU GUYS DATING!" She screeched. Thus the conspiracys started. We laughed as we watched the conspiracy videos that evening. Curled up on the couch in each others warmth. That was the first time dan had told me he loved me.
~end of flashback~

I woke up sweating with tears streaked down my face. How do you even cry in your sleep? I was too tired to miss Dan though he wouldn't leave my head. I crawled to Corey's  kitchen, its 8:30 hes probably at some zen, focus on your mind, safespace yoga class right now. Poring myself a cup of tea/coffee/other beverage Dan's stupid chocolate eyes played my head.
"You dont miss him (y/n). He is an idiot." I scolded myself. I was half lying, he was an idiot but only when hes drunk, mostly. Sometimes his petty throwbacks were to harsh and he ended up hurting my feelings but he'd always buy me (fave food) and we'd make up. But not new Dan, not the Dan who would let me drag him into (fave store), not the Dan who would send me a picture of a pretty flower he saw and said it reminded him of me, not the Dan who would binge watch cringe romance animes on a week night with me resting on his chest. No, the new Dan who broke my heart 8 hours ago.