euphoria

4

08/15/17

Stuck in the sea of this lights while
everyone is making noise by constantly beeping

The atmosphere became so heavy-
Thoughts and questions starts to build up in my mind-
I suddenly became so nervous and
the feeling on chest became so substantial

"What's happening?"

Before i knew it i'm already running-
running out of my car heading towards to
to the tumult-

just to relieve myself-
just to make sure that it is not
what i am feeling-
that what i am thinking is wrong-
i start to jostle to the crowd
so i can see the catastrophe-

but when i finally make it through
everything became so taciturn-

wished its not true-
wished i was just dreaming-

after being apart for just like a minute
the buoyant moment suddenly became
an agony-

maybe if i didn't leave him this will
never happen-
maybe if i came earlier he is not here
soaking with his own blood-

"Jungkook" i said as i hasten towards the
body that is lying in the cold pavement

calling his name while whimpering-
begging to hold on-

"H-hyung...." he said smiling while catching for breath
"J-jungkook i'm so sorry, p-please do not close your e-eyes please" i said in agony
"I-its not your fault, please accept my fate. I d-don't want you
to be c-chained by the m-mistakes you did. I am h-happy bc of y-you and the o-others. T-thank you h-hyung f-for everything" he said as he flash a smile

in just a blink of an eye jungkook's smile vanished-
he is not breathing anymore-

"JUNGKOOOOOK!!!!!" i scream as i woke up

i cup my face as i start to cry again.
i dreamed of it again-
of him again-

as i shed tears i caught something in my peripheral vision
its Jungkook smiling so wide to me.

"Kookie its a new day again. A new day that we need to
spend without you. " i said to myself as i get out of my bed to
light up the candles in jungkook's picture.

"Just be patient maknae we will see you again, wait for us" i whisper to him before i kiss
him to bid a goodbye again today.

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Ah stop, stop hahahahahaha
(AN// the date above is the date when i wrote the stories)