Crushed

The end of the beginning

We sat in the open meadow, a little picnic he made just for me in front of us. Scattered were what seemed like little edible flowers made out of icing on a nice cake for my birthday.

The world seemed to freeze in time as we giggled and spoke to each other like we've known one another for ages. My heart beat quickened when he suddenly nuzzled his palm against my right cheek.

Butterflies spread at the thought. A light kiss pecked my lips and I broke into a million tiny pieces. Realization hit me hard. Tears streamed down my face and what felt like a dream turned into a nightmare.

"What's wrong?"

"Why, why would you kiss me? You cheated on me! Then you said you were sorry and that you got drunk because I wasn't at some stupid party! To do it all again! You think I didn't know,hmm? You... your dating my best friend. Do you even know he's a guy!"

"I'm sorry." With puzzled expressions and a questionable look he tried to hug me.

"No! No no no you fucking lier!" I hit his chest multiple times as I arose to my feet.

"You don't even have a clue what I'm talking about do you? Ok, let me fill you in. The 'girl' on Instagram steely he said his name was?"

"I can explain."

"Explain what that your a fuck boy that you can't stick with a single decent person that actually tried to love you for who your are! Was I not good enough? Am I not good enough for you? You don't even know him, you didn't even know he wasn't a girl! You, you fucking hoe!"

I turned and started to walk I heard him stand then I stopped but didn't turn to face him.

"Do you even know me. I bet you don't. You probably don't even know my name! You just want another thing to play with and it's not going to be me, okay... I'm done with your-"

"Nyx!"

"What?..." Inaudible, close to a whisper slipped my parted lips slowly not even I had realized I spoke.

"Your name is Nyx, Nyx Tyler.
Your favorite color is red and black,you go to Phoenix HighSchool and you struggle with your R's, you mostly hang out with the guys because you relate more and you like me, Thanos Hunter Mitchell. I'm sorry! I fucked up I know. But I didn't mean to hurt you I.. Im just used to being hurt myself so I just did it to you but when I said sorry I meant it,I really did! And I do right now."

"Lier," I retorted while starting to leave again but this time I felt him grab my arm and turn me around to face him.

His hands rest on my waist as we stand, his head rest on mine.

We stood there in silence until I spoke ending it all.

"I try to do my best but my best is not good enough for you and you said sorry but I just can't trust you, not here not now. You know where to find me if you want to talk more," I say before running away without looking back with tear filled eyes.