Dear Glee

Rachel Barbra Berry *

To whomever will read this,

I'm not blind

I'm not dumb

I know how people perceive me as – I'm a Diva. I'm Selfish. I'm Overdramatic. I'm Egocentric.

I'm not going to deny being those. Those qualities that people see as a negative trait, they are what makes me … me. And despite what I may or may have done in the past, I will not change who I am to *fit* in. And while I crave love, popularity and FRIENDSHIP, I'm not that desperate.

Well, I was but my attempts are obviously unappreciated.

Contrary to popular belief, I am human. Even if I'm a diva, I do care. I know I hog the spotlight, but that doesn't mean I deserve every biting remark about me somehow having a hidden agenda whenever I either try to step down from the spotlight or show some humane thing known as 'caring'.

Yes, I am selfish. Maybe it's because I've never actually *had* to. Why would I need to do so if my name never grazed their thoughts? And if it did, it would be to insult me or slander my being. I've had few people whom I thought of as friends – people I actually tried to show my care for. Even then, I doubt they return the sentiment.

Maybe it's because I grew up with two fathers who spoiled me – who believed in me. There was never a time they didn't encourage me or didn't believe in me. Growing up, they told me that I can be anything I want to be. But when I told people this, made them see this, they put me down. They tore me down, told me I'll never make it.

But I held strong.

I AM strong.

I will make it out of Ohio. And even if I don't become a broadway star, I won't let that bring me down. I will make it somewhere out there. Somewhere that isn't Ohio. And I am going to make it big.

And everyone who tore me down, everyone who doubted me, everyone who pretended they didn't know me, everyone who looked over their shoulders if I ever talked to them in fear of being recognized with me… they'll all eat their words. They'll all choke on their doubts. They'll all say they know me.

So, it's true that I'm selfish. It's true that I'm egocentric. But who cares? I don't. That's all that matters.

I'm strong.

I will make it out of here.

Rachel Barbra Berry *

A/N: This is the longest letter I've written. It's not really in terms of favorite. I just see Rachel as someone with so much to say. She would be puking out word after word. Especially in an emotional moment.