Forbidden Love(Severus Snape Love Story)

Chapter 11

I woke up the next day feeling absolutely miserable. I did not want to get out of bed, but classes won't attend themselves. So I got out of bed, got dressed, threw my hair up into two buns on top of my head, didn't bother putting on my makeup and walked out of my room, down to the common room and made my way to the Great Hall for breakfast. I'll grab some food and then head to the strange reappearing door, that I found my 1st year. As soon as I got to the Great Hall I made my way down my house table and sat at the only empty table so I wouldn't have to interact with anybody this morning. I put some scrambled eggs and two slices of buttered toast on my plate and got to scarfing it down. 

"Good morning Macy!" Greeted Tommi as he sat down in front of me. 

I put my metaphorical mask on and smiled at the 1st year. "Good morning Tommi. How have classes been for ya so far?" I asked the small Hufflepuff as I finished eating the second slice of toast that was on my plate. 

"They've been great! I especially enjoy Herbology so far. Potions unfortunatley I'm not doing so well at." He said starting to frown. But his bright smile immeadiatley spread right back across his face. "But I'm working on it! I'll get better." 

"Well that's the spirit!" I said smiling and giggling at his pure enthusiam. "If you ever need a tutor, I'm not so bad. We could goof to the dungeons together and I'll show you a few pointers."

"You would do that!?" Tommi exclaimed 

"Anything for my favorite little Hufflepuff." I said as i reached across the table and scruffled his hair. 

Tommi giggled. "Thank you so much Macy." 

"Of course kiddo. Now if you excuse me, I gotta do something. I'll talk to you later alright?" I said as I got up from the table. 

"Okay, see you later Macy!" Tommi said as he waved goodbye 

I giggled and waved him goodbye as I made my way out of the Great Hall. 

As soon as I saw the reappearing door I looked both ways down the corridor. No one in sight. I booked it for the door. I opened the door, ran in and closed the door softly. I leaned against the door and let my mask melt off. I walked towards the piano, sat on the stool infront of it and started rummaging through my bag for music. 

"ah ha!" I placed the music I was looking for on the piano, cracked my fingers and began to play and sing. 

"I gave all my oxygen to people that could breathe

I gave away my money and now we don't even speak

I drove miles and miles, but would you do the same for me?
Oh, honestly?
Offered off my shoulder just for you to cry upon
Gave you constant shelter and a bed to keep you warm
They gave me the heartache and in return I gave a song
It goes on and on" 

a tear slowly made it's way down my face 

"Life can get you down so I just numb the way it feels
I drown it with a drink and out-of-date prescription pills
And all the ones that love me they just left me on the shelf
No farewell
So before I save someone else, I've got to save myself" 

More tears made their way down my face and dropped against the white and black keys. 

"I gave you all my energy and I took away your pain
'Cause human beings are destined to radiate or dream
What line do we stand upon 'cause from here looks the same?
And only scars remain

Life can get you down so I just numb the way it feels
I drown it with a drink and out-of-date prescription pills
And all the ones that love me they just left me on the shelf
No farewell
So before I save someone else, I've got to save myself" 

I began to play the keys louder and more passionately, I didn't even notice that some had walked in and  had shut the door quietly behind them. 

"But if don't
Then I'll go back
To where I'm rescuing a stranger
Just because they needed saving just like that
Oh, I'm here again
Between the devil and the danger
But I guess it's just my nature
My dad was wrong
'Cause I'm not like my mum
'Cause she'd just smile and I'm complaining in a song
But it helps
So before I save someone else
I've got to save myself" 

Tears were just pouring down as I ran my fingers across the keys like a mad man 

"Life can get you down so I just numb the way it feels
I drown it with a drink and out-of-date prescription pills
And all the ones that love me they just left me on the shelf
No farewell
So before I save someone else, I've got to save myself
And before I blame someone else, I've got to save myself
And before I love someone else, I've got to love myself" 

After the last note I began to sob. I've dealt with this depression for as long as I could remember. It's unbearable at times to say the least. I try to be my optimistic self, I really do. There's so much life I want to experience on the beautiful existence. But how can I enjoy any of it hen internally all I want to do is kill myself because deep down I'm a miserable soul waiting to break from this flesh like prison. Didn't help with my awful upbringing. Parents who didn't want you and made sure you knew that. I stand up out of frustration as I cry and run my hands through my hair. 

"I don't want to feel like this anymore!" 

I pick up the piano and throw it at the nearest wall. This cause a huge crack in the window like wall. It starts to spread across all of them. Then finally, all the walls burst and glass flies everywhere. Behind them, nothing but grey concrete. The beautiful landscape was gone. I fell to the ground, glass cutting my knees, quietly crying to myself. 

"It's..not fair." I sob to myself. 

Out of nowhere, I hear foot steps make their way towards me. Great. Someone found my secret get away. I don't care. They can make fun of me all they want. I never get to let my feelings out. I always have to hide it and bottle it up from people. No one needs to see this side of me. The mysterious person to my surprise kneels down, takes me to them and hold me in their arms as I cry into their chest. I didn't even care who they were. I was just glad to have someone to hold me. I cried for a little longer until I was all cried out. I then was very drowsy and began to fall asleep against who ever this mysterious person was. Their beautiful aroma was lulling me to sleep. They smelled like a mixture of the dungeons and faint hint of body wash. 

"Thank you" I whispered and then fell asleep in the arms of the stranger.  

(Song: Ed Sheeran, Save Myself)