Fallen Soldier

Chapter one

Heyy, so this is my new story, as you have probably guessed the first two or three chapters aren't going to be all unicorns and rainbows but the story in general is not a sad one so please don't be put off!  This story is going to have some mature themes to it including sexual content.  But for any of the faint hearted (or non- perverted :P) of you i will be uploading the racier stuff into a restricted chapter book! hope you all enjoy <33 Please vote/comment!!! <33

“I’m gonna miss you so much” I said quietly as I traced patterns on his broad chest next to my cheek.

“I’m gonna miss you too baby” Danny replied, tightening his warm arms around my bare torso.

We had laid like this for hours just savouring being together, trying to commit the feel of our warm skin touching to memory, for memories were all we’d have for the next two long, lonely months.

He raised his wrist to check the time and sighed sadly as he saw that the day was quickly escaping us.  He gently rolled over until he was hovering over me, covering me with his large body.  I looked up into his beautiful blue eyes that never failed to take my breath away and feathered my finger along his cheek bone as I took in all the little details of his face that I knew as if they were my own, his fair stubble gracing his strong jaw, the almost invisible freckles dotted over his nose that he’d gotten after a day in the sun last week, the small nick in his nose he got when we were fifteen, he had been protecting me from some guy at a party and had got into a scuffle, fool ended up getting his nose broken.

“What are you smiling at?” he asked placing a small kiss on each upturned corner of my mouth.

“Do you remember this?” I asked running my finger down his nose and stopping at the tiny bump.

“Yeah, that bastard broke my nose” he chuckled.

I laughed along with him before planting a kiss on the end of his nose.

“Don’t worry baby, you’re still pretty” I assured.

“I know” He grinned cockily leaning down to secure his lips firmly to mine.

That familiar warm glow spread through me as his lips worked their magic against mine, nipping and teasing until I was worked up into a frenzy of need.

“How long do we have?” I asked breathlessly.

“Long enough” He replied huskily before pressing his hard body closely against mine.

The hour passed quicker than I could ever have imagined, we reluctantly dragged ourselves out of bed and showered, before heading to the air base where a plane was waiting to take him and his squadron to Afghanistan.  I hung back and watched Danny greet fellow comrades, marvelling at how handsome he looked in his uniform.  I waved at one of Danny’s friends wives that I was friendly with, she waved back with a small sad smile.  The air hanger was filled with friends and family that had come to see them off, some of the soldiers had young children hanging off them, I watched one of them cradle a newborn baby in his arms.  I wondered if that would be us in the future, weather Danny would still be in service by the time we had kids, I hoped not.

“Not getting broody are we future wife of mine?” I heard Danny chuckle from behind me as he slipped his arms around my waist.

“Not just yet soldier boy, we need to work on getting married first” I laughed turning to face him.

He smiled down at me for a few seconds, I relished being the reason behind the love dancing in his eyes.

“Marry me” He said still smiling.

“I’ve already agreed to that remember?” I joked flashing the dainty ring on my left hand at him.

His smile turned into a grin.

“I meant marry me when I finish my tour in the fall, lets do it” He said expectantly.

My heart skipped a beat..

“Seriously? That soon?” I asked bewildered.

“Yeah why not!”  He laughed.

“Oh my god!” I shouted throwing my arms around his neck and hoisting myself up to wrap my legs around his waist.

“Jesus, no need to burst my eardrums” He laughed looking at me like I was a million dollar prize.

“Come on boys time to load your stuff into the craft!” I heard the someone yell over the commotion of all the people.

I gripped Danny tighter as I remembered that he was leaving, in my excitement I had forgotten.  His face fell the same as mine as he realised this too, I could almost see the cogs turning in his head and I knew exactly what he was about to say.

“Please take it baby” He pleaded placing my feet on the ground.

“I don’t want it” I shook my head and tried desperately to stop the tears welling up in my eyes.

Be strong Millie.

This is what happens every time he leaves, he tries to give me a letter he’s written me in case he doesn’t come back.  I never wanted to take it, I felt like it was tempting fate.  My heart squeezed as I saw him take an envelope out of his pocket, the thing made me feel sick.

“Please Millie baby” He begged quietly as he slipped it into my back pocket.

I looked into his ocean blue eyes and left the letter burning a hole in my pocket like I did every time.  It took everything I had in me not to remove it and rip the thing to shreds but I knew that he would be angry with me if I didn’t keep it.  It was tradition that once he was back we would burn it together unopened.

“Barton, Taylor hurry up!” I heard shouted.

We both looked over to where his commanding officer was standing waiting for him and his friend Ben, who were the last two soldiers left not on the plane. 

“I have to go” he said sadly as he turned back to me.

I tried to squash down the panic and fear swelling like the tide in my stomach, I nodded unable to talk knowing that my voice would betray my inner turmoil.  I always made a promise to myself that I’d give him the happiest send off I could manage, to never let him see how much it killed me inside as it would only make him feel worse than he already did for leaving me.

I reached up on tippy toes and pressed my lips fiercely to his, wrapping my arms as tightly as I could around his shoulders, he returned the kiss crushing me to him so tightly that I could barely breath.

“BARTON!”

He broke away to rest his forehead to mine.

“I love you” He whispered

“I love you too” I said back.

I closed my eyes as he placed one last kiss on my lips before releasing me from his embrace,  I opened my eyes to see him turning to walk away onto the plane without a second look back.

I took a deep breath trying to beat down the sickness in my stomach, I knew this feeling would be stuck with me until he was back in my arms, safe and sound.

I felt a hand on my arm and turned to see Bens wife Sarah standing next to me looking exactly how I felt, she hugged me fiercely and I hugged her back, each of us trying to stop the tears that were breaking through our façade.