Thug Love

Dreams And Nightmares: Part 01

Watching Chresanto walk into that girl's home almost four months ago and come out two hours later, fucked my head up bad. Especially when I found out that ole owned the house, it only made it worse. Chres put up a fight saying he was breaking things off with her, but who do I look like, Boo Boo the fool?

There's no way he could convince me that that's the only reason he was there for two hours. I mean not only did you go to this chick house in the middle of the night, your ex at that?

When I noticed he was leaving more than normally I knew she was pregnant by him. I knew it wasn't for business purposes. This hurt me more because I'm supposed to be carrying his first seed.

I know, you're wondering why I waited four weeks right. In all honesty, I was hurt and scared to find out the truth. I didn't wanna believe that my Chres would do me dirty like that. I mean he knows everything I done been through with Larray's trifling ass and he turns around and does the same damn thing.

So here I sit, in the driveway of the home that I used to share with Chres. I don't want to go inside because I don't know if he's here . I miss my baby like crazy but I can't believe he did me like that.

The day we found out she was having a girl, I confronted her about it to make sure she's wasn't sleeping around before all of this, Instead of him leaving the house we shared I left. It killed me to do it, but I couldn't stand to look at him. I felt like knocking the shit out of her and him, but I loved his ass too much to do that to him.

I know he hated seeing me cry , but he betrayed me. I've been staying at Nique's. Oh just because we on the outs, don't mean he don't still check on me. No matter what, I'm gonna love Chres til the death of me. I finally decided to go in the house. I walked in, flicked on the light and my eyes instantly went straight to the picture of Chres and me sitting on the coffee table in the living room. I had to get out of this house; there are too many memories of us here. Since I told him I was leaving that very night four months ago, I barely even visit here.

I thought about going back to the girl house, but I needed a release. I made a detour and headed in the direction of Mike's house. Mike is a dude a met a while ago, but I never really fucked with him because I had Chres .

Over the past few weeks I'd been kicking it with Mike. We never had sex and he ain't push the issue he was just someone I could talk to and he understood that. My heart belonged to Chres .

Mike told me he was catching feelings,and I ain't have a problem with it because he knows his limits . It was a little after one thirty in the afternoon . I texted him and told him I was on my way.

The rain was letting up as I pulled into Mike's driveway. I walked in and he was sitting on the couch watching television. I sat down next to him as he leaned over and kissed me. I kissed back, although I wasn't into all that kissy kissy lovey dovey crap.

"What are you doing?" he asked still shocked I kissed back.

"I'm going shopping for my unborn. Do you wanna come?" I answered and also asked .

"Did you even tell him you pregnant " He asked

"Why should I " I answered his question wit a question

We jumped in my Lexus and headed towards the mall. Once we were on the mall I began tearing the mall down. He basically held all the bags as I bought everything in sight for my unborn. Nordstrom, Macy's, Children's Place my baby had at least six outfits from each store. We headed back to my car to drop the bags off so I could go back for round two.

I walked by the jewelry store engrossed in a conversation with Mike I glanced into the store and had to do a double take. I thought my eyes were playing tricks on me. I must've burned a hole in his cheek because he looked up and we locked eyes. I glanced at the female standing next to him.

Mike looked in the store to see what I was looking at. Chres instantly frowned. I knew shit was gonna get ugly and quick! "Let's go," I spoke to Mike. I knew Chresanto and I knew he was gonna come out of the store and cause a scene.

"BAHJA!" I heard Chres yell. I turned around and looked at him; the chick was hot on his heels.

"What" I snapped.

"Fuck you mean what!? Fuck is this? Why you shopping for baby clothes" he questioned.

"Why? You're here with the this chick in a jewelry store at that!" I was trying to keep my cool because we were in the middle of the damn mall! This bitch had a nerve to step forward.

"You know me I'm the baby mama." She spoke up.

I snickered, "And I don't give a fuck!"

"Bee who's this? And why you shopping for baby clothes" Chres intervened.

"Mike, Chres , Chres, Mike." Quick and straight to the punch.

"Is this the same nigga Mike I told you to not to talk to ?" he questioned.

"Ain't this the same bitch you got pregnant?" I shot back.

I noticed we were starting to gain the attention of some of the shoppers.

Mike stepped to my side, "Bee let's just go there is no need to make a fool of yourself arguing over nothing."

"My dude fall back and don't try to handle what's mine!" Chres shot and I know all he was seeing was red because his eyes went from hazel to orange reddish color, a clear sign he was ready to mess something or someone up.

I pointed to Nessa "That's where you messed up! That belongs to you! Remember, you broke up with me. I'm no longer your concern!" I turned and walked away. I refused to bring any more attention to myself in this damn mall. I looked at my phone and noticed it was almost five. Seeing Chres with Nessa stirred up emotions I thought I had under control.