Thug Love

Chapter 01

As I walked home, I scrolled through the songs on my iPod. All the wrong songs were playing they were my favorites, but not the ones Iwanted to hear at this very moment. One song stuck out that I just couldn't force myself to change it.

Baby I don't know why ya treatin me so bad You said you love me, no one above me And I was all you hadAnd though my heart is eating for yaI can't stop crying I don't know how I allow you to treat me this way and still I stay Baby I don't know why ya wanna do me wrong See when I'm home, I'm all alone And you are always gone And boy, you know I really love you I can't deny I can't see how you could bring me to so many tears

after all these years See my days are cold without you But I'm hurtin while I'm with you And though my heart can't take no more I keep on running back to you See my days are cold without you But I'm hurtin while I'm with you And though my heart can't take no more I keep on running back to you

As I reached my house, my tears started falling and I didn't even bother to wipe them because I knew that I had to eventually cry her emotions out at some point. As I listened to Ashanti singing I ran through the house to get to my room. My heart was in pain, and it hurted badly. I didn't even feel this type of pain when Money got locked up. My heart was truly broken.

I never imagined that I would be without Larray. I eventually cried myself to sleep. I woke up three hours later to the ringing of the house phone. I reached over and grabbed the cordless off my dresser.

"Hello" I answered sleepily.

"You have a prepaid call from the Adult Correctional Facility from 'Tremaine' if you wish to accept this call, please press 0" I perked up and pressed 0.

I rubbed my eyes as the call was connected. "Hey Money" I smiled

"Hey baby girl, what's wrong with my sister?" I sighed,

"I'm alright Money, hurt but alright."

"What's wrong Bee? You know damn well you can't hide shit from me" he chuckled.

"Larray and I broke up today. I've had enough of the lies." I felt the tears building up in my eyes.

Money sighed, "Damn Bee, I'm sorry to hear that. But what have I always told you?"

"If it was meant to be, it'll fall back together" We replied in unison.

Money and I chatted for a little while longer. I could not wait until Money got home, I missed having my brother around. We used to stay up late and tell each other jokes or we would wrestle with each other. Money made sure that I would never have to worry about not being able to protect myself. I found myself staring at the ceiling and less than twenty minutes later, sleep overcame her.

Several hours later, I heard the front door close. I glanced over at my digital clock and noticed it was after midnight . No one ever came through the door after midnight. I slowly walked downstairs and followed the voices which led to the kitchen.

"Hey momma, you're just getting home" I questioned.

My mother jumped, "oh hey baby, I didn't know you were up. This is my friend Montae. Montae, this is Bahja, my daughter."

I didn't miss the lust in Montae's eyes and he instantly made me feel uncomfortable. I glanced back over at my mom, my mom smiled at Montae. "Ma, are you okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine baby. Go on back to bed." I noticed the slurring in my moms words which was unusual because my mom very rarely drank. I knew something had to be up especially because she brought a total stranger into the house. When I looked back at Montae, I noticed him lick his lips sexually. I then decided in the morning that I would have to have a talk with my mom about Montae. I turned on my heels and made my way back upstairs. When I got to her room, I closed and locked my door.

hey beutiful call me you can" I smiled and called his phone. I patiently waited for him to answer the phone. I heard him answer the phone.

"What's up beautiful?" I smiled just a little at the sound of him calling me beautiful

"nothing I just seen that you had called. What you up too" I asked.

"Nothing I'm on my way home right now. Ain't too much shit on these streets plus these young niggas are makin the block hot."

"I hear you, that's why I don't do shit. If I ain't with Nique, I'm home."

"You don't chill with ole' boy "Chres  questioned.

I sighed, " I finally realized that wrong is wrong . Don't get me wrong, I love him but I deserve better."

Chres smiled at hearing that Bahja no longer had a boyfriend but he wasn't gonna push up on her. He knew the healing process of ending a relationship that lasted years. His own heart was still healing, but he did a very good job at hiding it.

"That sucks ma, but like you said, you deserve better. You deserve to be treated like royalty and nothing less." Chres and I chatted until way after four am till Chres realized I was falling asleep on the phone.

"Good night beautiful. Sleep tight and sweet dreams." He knew I was sleep because he could hear the light snoring but he still said it.