Unchained

5. Life has to go on

Life continues.

Life is random, there are constantly going to be inevitable changes and you are not always going to be happy but you have to find it in yourself, who you are because that's what matters don't lose yourself in the darkness.

I started to focus on what matters to me and what makes me happy.
I started spending more time with family and friends.
My family is awesome they always been there for me and I'm grateful they are always honest with me because they made me see he was not good for me because I was blinded by love. I moved two hours away living with my aunt to pursue a career in health care at the place my grandma resided for a couple years before she passed but I love what I do and it's an amazing place. I started getting closer to my aunt and cousins, and got to be around my cousins cute little kids more than I used to. I live closer to the ocean and many amazing hiking trails. I love being outside. I sit by the Oceanside for hours and the family tells stories around the beach fires we have on the summer nights under the starry skies. I realize there is so much more to experience in life because living is beautiful.
I have amazing friends, only a few but they are true. I have had many "friends" through life that come and go but somehow I got lucky with these three people in my life. My two friends I have known for five years inspire me because they aren't afraid to be who they are if only I was that strong. Then my other good friend who probably understands me better than anyone, he just has such a kind soul, just a hidden gem that no one sees, a wallflower like me. He is truly the best person I know. He'll text me just to check up on me or like at 6am to see how Im doing like why did I waste a year on this other guy begging him for one text or call?
Thing thing is we are just friends despite in high school he told me he had feelings for me but I was already infatuated with this other guy which in fact they are good friends so that made things complicated but in the end he was really great even though I broke his heart we continued being close friends. I can't go back now but who knows what the future holds for us. I don't want to jump into something right away I'm starting to enjoy single life. So where the path takes me I will go...

...to be continued 🙃