Unchained

2. The 15 Reasons why he lost me

I wrote this for him but I haven't had the courage to send it to him yet but these are just some of the reasons. I can't believe I was so stupid and naive for falling for his act but also I will always blame myself for not having a voice and telling him how I really feel.

1. I wasn't first priority in your life you didn't make time for me but you ran to your friend when he needed you always.
2. You didn't make too much effort in communication and I had to take initiative if I wanted to see you.
3. You didn't respect me you just told me you did.
4. You didn't respect my family you saw them as an obstacle or something keeping me from you and the way you talked to my sister that night was so disrespectful you didn't even understand.
5. You first pressured me into things just for your own pleasure and didn't care if I was uncomfortable because you reapetively said things and I kept telling you I was uncomfortable but you were persistent. You didn't care that I didn't get the pleasure you did.
6. You always got to finish and left me with nothing. You took advantage of me, that one time when you said you saw an "opportunity" I was only the opportunity to get pleasure from.
You only wanted to have sex when I came over to your place and when we were alone anytime anywhere you always saw an opportunity to touch me sexually and even though I told you it was wrong place and inappropriate timing you continued.
7. We always had to do what you wanted to do, hang out at your place, games, music, movies but when I suggested things you shot them down. I always wanted to go to the beach not once in did you take me but when I  got you out of the house only for you started to watch a video on your phone and not me present in the moment with me.
8. Whenever we werent having sex you didnt seem intrested in me, you had to watch videos or movie on your phone or game that I'm never interested in and I told you that but you kind of make me watch.
9. You never let me in to what you were feeling ever or any past. Though you told your friend everything.
10. You never let me touch your phone ever, you are more overprotective of your phone than you are of me, you would fight me for it. was it because of other girls you talk to? You told me I was "more attractive then her" that girl you work with, so you are attracted to her too? Like what does that mean? You never say that to your girl no matter what.

You made me feel so self conscious and so worthless.

11. That day at the beach with my family in mill bay I had the football we were goofing around but you aggressively flipped me onto the rocks and it hurt so bad , I don't care what you do never in a million years you should never risk hurting her.
12. You never really checked in on me sometimes it was for days just to see how my day went or even just to say good morning.
13. You were always working and never made time for me and never could say no to work, never could cut down hours or book time off.
14. You said you would try to fix things but it seems like nothing ever did change, big surprise.
15. You let me go you didn't ask why you were just ok with it and didn't fight for me like I asked you to. You had me with your words but lost me with your actions you really knew how to play me and tell me what i wanted to hear.

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