Unexpected Love

Chapter 22: The Fight

  "What does it matter?!" I yell.
  Mason and I had gotten into fights before. Of course they were all minor fights, not as bad as this one.
  "Look at you. You're a mess. It does matter!" Mason yells back.
  "It's not like I see you anyways anymore! Even when we're both off, you're out with your friends!" I throw my hands up and begin walking away.
  Mason came home to me depressed and hardly moving. Just lying on the bed emotionless. He asked me what's wrong and I told him. I got more shifts and now we'll see each other less than before. He tried convincing me to change it so that way I have more time off instead. I told him it didn't matter because we're busy working and he's been partying with his friends a lot lately.
  "Don't fucking walk away from me Tyler!" He snaps as he follows me.
  "Just leave it alone Mason. It doesn't matter. You just might as well move across the damn country, it's not like I see you anymore anyways! It's wake up, work, work out, then party for you!" I begin walking faster, trying to avoid him.
  "I'll just get rid of all my friends and my social life then!" He replies.
  "Having friends isn't the issue! Never seeing you is the issue!" I stop halfway up the staircase and he stops just a couple steps behind me.
  "It's like... It's like you don't even love me anymore. It's like you'd rather drink and party you're life away. You don't even try to spend a day with me." I say.
  "If that's how you really feel then I guess it's over. I'll just move back to Axlit!" He continues to yell.
  I slowly lift my head, trying to take in what he just said. I bite my lip, trying to stay strong and choking back every tear and scream. My hands begin to tremble and I race up the stairs. I run into the room and slam the door behind me.
  I lean against the door, breathing heavily and questioning whether to have a breakdown or bottle it up and stay strong. Did he really just say that? Has he wanted to break up? How long has he wanted to break up with me. I slowly slide down the door and extend one leg, raising the other to mg chest. I can hear Mason running up the stairs and to the room. He begins desperately banging on the door.
  "Tyler.... I'm sorry. I... can we please just talk?" His voice is calm and soft.
  I take a moment to breathe and slowly rise. I regain my balance and slowly open the door. We look into each other's eyes, both of us have the same look of apology and sadness.
  "Do you really want to break up?" I ask, my voice beginning to crack and I'm on the verge of crying.
  We look at each other for another second and then run into each other's arms, hugging tightly. Both of us are in tears, doing our best to comfort the other. I desperately kiss him trying to make everything a little better. I pull away and press my forehead against his.
  "I'm sorry baby. I didn't mean any of it, I swear. I don't know what it is I was thinking. I was being impulsive and stupid. I love you, I really do. I'm so sorry I hurt you. I love you so much." He says.
  I hug him tighter and a few more tears slip down my face. I take a deep breath and slowly pull away. I hold his waist and look down, trying to smile to reassure the both of us
  "Good. Because I love you too. I can't lose you." I whisper.
He smiles back and lifts my chin up. He kisses my gently but just as desperate. Both of us are feeling sad and guilty. We're both desperate to fix it all and show the other just how much they're loved.
  "I don't think I could ever leave you, even if I tried." He whispers back.
  I can see it in his face that he's trying not to cry again. I kiss his cheek and pull him over to the bed. I lay down and pull him in with me.
  "It's okay. I love you and I won't leave you either." I pull him close to me and slowly play with his hair.
  "I can see it in your eyes. It's okay, let it all out." I whisper as I grab his hand and hold it.
  He grabs my shirt and hides in my chest. I cuddle him and continually reassure him as he quietly cries. It's so sad to see him like this. I hate seeing people I love suffer. He stops and then regains the ability to speak. He pulls away and looks at me with his sweet and innocent eyes. I brush some hair from his face and wipe away a few remaining tears.
  "I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to hurt. I love you so much. I hate not seeing you. I go party because it distracts me from the pain. I hate not seeing you, believe me. It kills me. I need you. I can't live without you. I want to make you mine forever. I want to see your face every day and kiss you. I want to constantly tell you how much I love you. I want to start a family. I want to make you feel like the most loved and the most special boyfriend ever. You're everything to me. I'm so mad at myself for hurting you. I love you so much." He explains.
  I'm truly touched by his words. It makes me want to cry again, but this time tears of joy. I love him so much too. I'm shocked at how much he wants me, at how much he needs me.
  "It's okay. I hurt you too, and I'm very sorry. I love you just as much. I want to be with you forever, and I promise, we'll make that happen one way or another." I smile and kiss him again, happy to be with him.