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To my first love

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To my first love//Poems for everyone

To my first love,
This is dedicated to you.
I am willing to write this
And I hope you can appreciate this even just a little.

My love,
Remember the first time we met?
It was our first class on our first year in highschool...
I didn't notice you much that day.
But hey, as time flies, this thing in my heart develops.

This thing that makes my heart jump whenever I see you,
When you look at me,
And when you smile,
It was like everything's in blur,
And all I can see clearly was you.

And that thing?
That...that's love.
Love changed it all.
Love is what I'm feeling.

Until the day came,
The day when you told me what you felt for me,
I thought I was just dreaming but I wasn't
And I also told you what I felt for you.

The feeling's kinda mutual.
We weren't into a relationship,
But I felt our hearts burning whenever we're together.
Oh, how happy am I with you.

My love,
Remember the night?
The night when you danced me,
And you said
That I'm the only girl you'd love to dance with.

It was just like a fairytale come true!
It's you who made my dreams turn to reality.
You always make me feel special.
You even owned me that night.

That night was the best of all our memories.
And the next was
When you gave me a rose and chocolates.
I felt so much special again.

Thank you for such things.
I did my first experiences in highschool with you.
You never let me feel unloved.
I'm so thankful I had you.

I also wanted to say sorry,
I feel like I've done mistakes to you.
Sorry for the times you felt ignored.
Sorry because I didn't make you feel how much I loved you.

But now,
We weren't seeing each other lately.
I'm afraid there's someone who takes your attention
I'm afraid you'd rather love someone else and not me
I am too scared to lose you.

We had several fights,
And the recent was the worst.
You weren't talking to me anymore.
And if I'd talk to you, I feel like I'm the most useless person to talk to.

You didn't even bother to know if I'm okay
You don't know how it hurts not to talk to you every single day.
You were always here in my mind,
And you don't know that.

It's all about you, or us
That makes me sleep late.
I kept on asking myself,
What's wrong?

Did I do or say something not right?
And that's another one,
I don't know if you are angry or not.
I really have no idea.

That's it,
I am now wiping tears that streamed down my face.
All the time I was reminiscing our memories,
Every single one.

And unfortunately for the last time,

I want to tell you
That I loved you so much and so bad.

Lovingly yours,
Reine💜