The people you care about the most are the ones who are capable of hurting you so much.
This is true, right?
I guess a person who loves incompletely can divide the whole world into two groups - the people they care about and the people they do not care about.
In my case, I care about my immediate family members, my friends (those I personally consider friends that is), my students (those who were under my care), brothers and sisters in the Christian community I belong to, colleagues I respect, valued mentors, relatives who did nothing to offend me, the parish priests, good celebrities and politicians, public figures with integrity, my beloved pets, all animals esp street dogs I pass by.....
I don't care about people I do not know, people I never had contact with and people who hurt me.
I don't care about people who hurt me, hypocrites, back stabbers, and my special pet peeve - insincere folks.
I have a very efficient detector of whether a person is sincere or not and it is instinctive, hard-wired into my system and typicaly wreaks havoc with my socialization efforts.
However, I realized now that the people I have come to hate were people I once cared about rather deeply.
It's just that these people have, advertently or inadvertently, destroyed my trust and respect for them.
They are people I once believed in. They are the people I considered as friends.
Its just sad that I relegated them to the other side of the world. And it is also sad that I am incapable of replacing them to the side they originally belonged to.
Or am I really?
Only God knows.
