AN: Here it goes :)
'That's so unlike you Ez :P basta ikaw pa din ang gwapo kong pinsan. Haaha'
Habang nanunuod ng Shaman King, (paborito ko lang) kausap ko sa telepono si Des. Ewan ko ba, more than cousin na ung relationship namin. More of like brother-and-sister na, sa lahat ng pinsan ko, eto ang dabest. Ahm, no no no! Rephrase natin, siya ang pinaka sa mga pinaka sa mga pinsan ko :) Desteen Riley Balza ang fullname niya, pero Mama used to call Des as Riley. Nakakatuwa lang kase para na shang si Aji Ginisa Mix, 3 in 1 kasi. Daddy ko na Mama ko na Kapatid ko. Maarte man pero may sense of humor parati yan. May sense lahat ng sinasabi niya pero madalang. (Ano daw?) Siya yung nag push sakin sa lahat ng bagay. Not in the literal way. Though wala na sila titta at tito, parents ni Des, lumaki siya na parang daig pa yung ibang tao na nabuhay kasama ang mga magulang nila. Minsan nga naaabutan ko yan na umiiyak sa kwarto niya ee, pero after that wala na. Sabi pa nga niya one time:
'Ang babae kasi, iiyak lang yan ng dagat. Tatagal ng isang araw pero believe me, after nun nakamove-on na siya. You better know that, once na nagkagirlfriend ka Ez :)'
Dinaig pakong lalaki kung manermon. Kaya hindi niyo ko masisisi kung pumayag akong magpalipat ng School para lang sa kanya. Mahal ko sha, not in a romantic way :) Buong buhay niya, ako na ang kasama niya. When I say buong buhay nya, simula nung ipanganak siya ni Tita.
Bigla akong napaigtad nung biglang nag-ring yung phone ko. Si Des tuamatawag. Ano kayang problema? Gabi na. 9:00 pm na ee. She's not the type of that.
'Hello Des, why?'
'GAAAAHD! EZ, PUNTA KA DITO SA APARTMENT NI LORI PLEASE! I NEED YOU!' sabi niya nag pasigaw.
So I immediately wear my short and shirts.
'Osige Des, huminahon ka muna. I'm on my way. Just send me the address'. sagot ko in a calm voice para kahit papaano huminahon siya.
and then nasend na niya yung address. Good to know na alam ko sha kaya madali akong nakapunta. Nasa tapat nako ng pinto pero bat ang tahimik? What should I do? But then, kailangan kong magpakalalaki. So i knocked.
Si Des ang nagbukas sakin, pero nasa matino na shang estado.
'What happened?' tanong ko na may halong kaba.
'Sa loob ko na sasabihin sayo. Pasok ka muna Ez, sorry sa istorbo' habang sinasabi niya to. Nakayuko siya kaya di ko alam kung umiiyak siya o sadyang malungkot lang ung boses niya. So umupo nako sa couch na malapit sa table sa gitna.
'Tell me? Where is your bestfriend?'
'Nasa taas, nagpapahinga. Pinatulog ko na'
'Oh ano ngang nangyari?' pilit kong tanong sakanya.
'Look Ez, hindi ko alam kung saan ko to sisimulan. Napaka complicated niya sobra'.
'Just tell me Des'.
May pianakita sha saking libro. Abnormal Psychology ang cover. Binigyan ko sha what-is-this-look? Pero sinabi lang niya sakin na basahin ko yung page
Dissociative identity disorder (DID), formerly called multiple personality disorder, is one of a group of conditions called dissociative disorders. Dissociative disorders are mental illnesses that involve disruptions or breakdowns of memory, awareness, identity and/or perception. When one or more of these functions is disrupted, symptoms can result. These symptoms can interfere with a person’s general functioning, including social activities, work functions, and relationships. People with DID often have issues with their identities and senses of personal history.
Dissociation is a key feature of dissociative disorders. Dissociation is a coping mechanism that a person uses to disconnect from a stressful or traumatic situation or to separate traumatic memories from normal awareness. It is a way for a person to break the connection between the self and the outside world, as well as to distance oneself from the awareness of what is occurring. Dissociation can serve as a defense mechanism against the physical and emotional pain of a traumatic or stressful experience. By dissociating painful memories from everyday thought processes, a person can use dissociation to maintain a relatively healthy level of functioning, as though the trauma had not occurred.
Dissociation can be described as a temporary mental escape (similar to self-hypnosis) from the fear and pain of the trauma. Even after the trauma is long past, however, the leftover pattern of dissociation to escape stressful situations continues. When dissociation is done repeatedly—as in the case of prolonged abuse—these dissociated mental states can take on separate identities of their own.
A person with DID, the most severe type of dissociative disorder, has two or more different personality states—sometimes referred to as "alters" (short for alternate personality states)—each of whom takes control over the person’s behavior at some time. Each alter might have distinct traits, personal history, and way of thinking about and relating to his or her surroundings. An alter might even be of a different gender, have his or her own name, and have distinct mannerisms or preferences. The person with DID may or may not be aware of the other personality states and might not have memories of the times when another alter is dominant. Stress or a reminder of the trauma can act as a trigger to bring about a "switch" of alters. This can create a chaotic life and cause problems in work and social situations.
Dissociative Identity Disorder, thought to be an effect of severe trauma during early childhood, usually extreme, repetitive physical, sexual, or emotional abuse. The presence of two or more distinct identities or personality states (each with its own relatively enduring pattern of perceiving, relating to, and thinking about the environment and self).
At least two of these identities or personality states recurrently take control of the person’s behavior. Inability to recall important personal information that is too extensive to be explained by ordinary forgetfulness. The disturbance is not due to the direct physiological effects of a substance (e.g., blackouts or chaotic behavior during Alcohol Intoxication) or a general medical condition (e.g., complex partial seizures). Note: In children, the symptoms are not attributable to imaginary playmates or other fantasy play.
Matagal bago ma-absorb ng utak ko ang mga binabasa ko. Psych-student ako kaya dapat alam ko to. Tiningnan ko sha ng may halong pagtataka. Matagal bago siya magsalita, at parang nastuck ako sa inuupan ko nung narinig ko na ang sinabi niya.
'Oo tama ka Ez. May DID si Lori.'
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AN: Sana hindi kayo mabore :) Simula na to. Bukas ulit. Takecare. Suggest lang po :) Please wag lang puro basa. :))
