Don't Say Goodbye

Chapter 11

        I sit in the front office waiting while they call my mom down to come get me. I wonder what she is going to think. It doesn’t matter anyway, she isn’t really a parent to me anyway. 

        The chair Im sitting on caused my butt to go numb and makes me wonder how long I have been here. I hear the secretary call down Brooke to get her side of the story and I roll my eyes. She is just going to cry and lie. She wont tell them how she kissed my boyfriend and how she has always bullied me. I guess her karma was coming to her, but I hope I wont get the repercussions of it. 

        I hear the door open and see Brooke step carefully into the ice cold office. Her face looks like she is turning into a eggplant. I kid you not her cheek and eye were that purple. She looks at me with eyes of a deer caught in head lights. She only keeps eye contact for a few seconds, then she looks away and walks into the principles office. 

        Its about 20 minutes until I see her again. She walks up to me slowly and tries not to make any eye contact with me. She leans in just so she is inches away from my face. She says loudly “Im sorry, that I tormented you.” Then when no one is looking she leans so close to my ear I can hear her breaths, they are steady. She whispers to me “You little bitch, you got me suspened for a month and I cant go to prom. I hope you are happy. If you ever come near me again you skank I will hurt you so badly that you will end up in the hospital. Do you understand me?” I say to her “Im not afraid of you.” “You should be. I can make your life a living hell for the rest of high school. I will tear you down and break you. You mess with me again and I will make sure you wont be able to have kids EVER. Oh and you need to take a shower, you smell like a fake bitch.” she threatens. 

        I get up from where Im sitting and move down a few seats. I clasp my hands together to keep them from shaking. I didn’t think she would be mean to me anymore after I stood up for myself, but I guess I was wrong. 

        Its the end of school by the time my mom picks me up. When I see her, her face looks like she just ate a lemon. She tells me to get up and come with her to the car. She is being very calm, Im surprised she hasn’t screamed at me yet. 

        As we walk to the car I start to cry, I keep it non-verbal so mom doesn’t know that Im crying. I look around the school parking lot and notice Scott. I see him smiling and laughing with his friends. He looks so happy. He looks over and notices me staring at him. His happy, smiling face fades. It is a sad and heartbroken. He then noticed my face was wet. His eyes widen slightly, but not enough for his friends to notice. I swallow and look away. 

        We finally make it to the car and as soon as my door shuts she starts to yell. “What the hell is wrong with you? Why would you punch someone?” she questions. “She kissed Scott and I....umm...she...uhhh....bullied me from freshman year to now and I had enough of it.” I say my voice barely audible. “Well then...just don’t let it happen again okay.” she says as she looks at me with sorrowful eyes and rubs my hair away from my tear stained face.

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        We arrive home and I get out of the car faster than a cheetah can run. I head to my room and as soon as I reach my door I slam it shut and slam onto my bed and cry my eyes out. 

        After about 10 minutes of crying I get up to go the bathroom. Before I can reach the door of my bedroom I hear a knock at my door. I look at the knob and prepare myself for another one of moms pep speeches. I turn the gold handle in my hand and open the door slowly and when I look up I don’t see my mom, I see Scott. 

        “What are you doing here?” I ask confused. He doesn’t respond to my question and walks into my room. I don’t object and let him in. He closes the door carefully not to make any sound so my mom doesn’t notice. 

        He walks towards me and as he does I don’t make eye contact with him. I don’t want him to see me like this. I don’t want him to see the pathetic me. He leans down and places his forehead against mine. My breaths automatically start to match his. He takes my arms, which are limp and places them around his neck. After he secures them there he wraps his gigantic arms around me. I don’t object to his gesture. He pulls me so close I can hear his heart beating against my chest. It is fast and rapid, the same as mine. 

        I nestle my head in the crook of his neck. We just stand there like that for a good 5 minutes. He finally releases me and I tell him I have to go to the bathroom. He gives me a funny look but lets me go. 

        I open the bedroom door and head to the bathroom. I close the bathroom door and search through all of the drawers until I find what I am looking for. 

        I stare at it. My reflection barely visible in the steel. I pick it up carefully and hold it in my hand. I take a deep breath and grab a wash clothe. I go and sit in the bathtub and think for a little. 

        Its nice of him to try to take my pain away by hugging me but that wont work. This will work. This will always work. I take the blade in my hand a position it over my wrist. I lower it until it touches my skin. I slowly slide the blade along my wrist. I watch as the blood comes to the surface like a bubble that has just been popped. A tear escapes my eye and I let it. The salty tear reaches my mouth.

        I hear a knock at the door. “Im busy.” I say trying to sound as calm and normal as possible. They ignore what I say and I watch as the handle moves and the door opens slowly as to be careful not to interrupt something. 

        “What the hell Olivia!” Scott yells. He slams the door shut and reaches me in two strides. I start to cry. I don’t want him to be mad at me too. “I....I just had to get rid of the pain.” I tell him. He stretches out his hand and I take it. When Im out of the tub he says to me as he gets me a band-aid “You have me to take your pain away. You don’t need to cut yourself. I told you, I am always here for you, even if you hate me, I will be here. Rain or shine. I love you Olivia. I love you so much.” All I could say to that was “I love you too.” 

        He looks at me after he places the band-aid on my wrist and he places his hand on my cheek. He leans in and he kisses me. His lips soft and amazing as usual. Electricity soars through my body giving me chills down my spine. It was the best kiss that we have ever had together.

        He pulls back and takes my hand and leads me out of the bathroom and into my bedroom. I lay down on my bed. The soft mattress caressing my body. He pulls the covers over my body and my eyes find that peaceful bliss that is sleep. 

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Chapter 12 should be up next week! I really like this chapter. Let me know what you think!