Don't Say Goodbye

Chapter 12

        Im startled awake by mom shaking my shoulders, yelling at me to get up because she has amazing news for me. She stops shaking me once I make eye contact with her. 

        I see her leave the room with a big smile on her face. I get up and grab my jacket that is hanging on my closet door. I fumble with the zipper and it ends up getting stuck half way up and I just leave it, too tired to fight with something this early in the morning. 

        I walk out to the living room and see my mom standing next to a poster board that say: NEW YORK HERE WE COME!!!!

         Surprised I ask her why it says that and she tells me that she got a job promotion and they are sending her to New York to open up the new business and help run it. I grab the couch to steady myself. 

        I can’t believe we are moving. This can’t be happening. I mean what about Scott and- . Wow, thats my only friend here. Maybe if we move I can make some new friends. But how am I gonna cope. Everyone is going to think Im a freak because of all my scars. I don’t know what to think about this. 

        Mom walks over to me slowly her face starting to lose its happiness. “Hey....whats wrong honey?” she asks trying to be motherly it almost works. 

        “I can’t believe we are moving...this is all so intense.” 

        “Think about it this way honey, we both get a fresh start. You can make some friends in New York and I can finally be a successful business woman.” she say trying to comfort me. I wish she would stop calling me honey, I hate that name. “Fine...when are we going?” I ask concerned as to how long I have left with Scott. “Tomorrow.” she says as she backs away from me, because she is afraid I might blow like a bomb. 

        I touch my head and start to feel dizzy and then everything goes black. 

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        I wake up to my mom staring at me. I look around and notice I am in the hospital. I look up at her in shock and ask her why Im here. She tells me that I passed out and was out for 20 minute and when it        got to 5 minutes when I wasn’t awake at the house she took me to the hospital. At least she is good for something. 

        I ask her how long I have to be here and she tells me just over night to make sure it doesn’t happen again. 

        “I will go home and pack. I will be back around dinner time to see you. I love you. Bye.” she says as she walks out of the room. Not even a smile. Her face was so straight and emotionless when she said it you have thought she had botox done too many times. 

        I sit in the hospital bed watching the TV for about a half and hour before I hear a knock at the door. Its a nurse. Her hair is curled but pulled back into a big clip. Her face is slightly wrinkled and you can kind of see the dark circles under her eyes. She smiles at me and tells me I have a visiter. But before she leaves she winks at me and smiles. Thinking that was weird I go back to watching the Tyra Show. 

        I notice movement near the door and look over and see a tall handsome guy standing in the doorway. Its Scott. I open my mouth shocked as to why he is here and how he found out I was here. 

        “What are you doing here?” I ask afraid to look him in the eye. 

        “I need to see you before you leave tomorrow night for New York.” 

        “Oh. How did you....know I was here and that we were moving?” I asked confused. He is now a few feet away from me. His eyes glisten in the horrible hospital lighting. They are so beautiful and I could lose myself in them for hours. 

        “I went by your house to see if you were okay after what happened when I was at your house yesterday.” 

        “Oh...um so you know that Im moving?” 

        “Yes.”

        “What do you think about it?” 

        He takes my hand and rubs the back of my hand with his thumb to comfort me. “I think its good that you are moving.” he says not making eye contact. I think I see a slight frown in his face but I can barely tell. 

        “What?!” I ask shocked removing my hand from his. “Wont you miss me?” I ask again baffled. 

        “Of course I will miss you! You are amazing and perfect and I care so much about you and I think that moving to New York will be good for you. You can start over.”

        “How the hell can I start over when I have these on my arms?!” I say pointing at my arms and letting a tear escape from my eye. He takes his hand and wipes away my tear and rubs my scars with his thumb of his other hand. He looks at me and say “You see these? They are battle scars. A battle that you are fighting and a battle I know you are going to win. You are strong and these show you how strong you are. You have over come so much and you just need to stay positive. Will you promise me that you will keep an open mind about New York?”

        “Okay.” I say looking up at his powerful eyes. 

        “Can I cuddle with you for awhile?” he asks with pleading eyes.

        “Yes” I say scooting over to make room for him big body. He wraps his arms around me and we just sit like that for awhile. Not talking just watching TV and enjoying each others company. This is bliss I don’t know what Im going to do without him. But I promised that I would keep and open mind and thats what I plan on doing.

        I end up falling asleep to the sound of his heartbeat.

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Chapter 13 should be up by next week!