The Stable Boy

Please Don't Crush my Soul

CHAPTER 5

I lie in bed unable to take my mind off Blake and how much i don't want him to leave me because i really like him and can't imagine the pain i will feel if i lost him. My life before Blake had been dull and lifeless my father went away a lot so i would be sat on my throne all day bolt up right no emotion on my face and just sit there doing nothing and losing all semse of everything around me. Until Edmund came i would have to sit all day on my throne anyway meeting suitor after suitor of course all pointless because my mother had complete power so i had no say in the matter anyhow. Now Edmund has been with us for two months and he has only said that he loves me once to my face and we never are nice to each other if we are left alo e together and now we are here my dad is gone and i am left with my mother and Edmund but Blake is now here and he makes life sweet again.

FLASHBACK

My father and I walk in the gardens we laugh amd gossip about how my mother can be so sour sometimes. My father walks ahead and picks a gorgeous deep red rose he hands it to me i smile and take it from him "It is the flower of love and beauty and you are my beautiful little girl Diana never forget that" I scrunch my face and look at him "I'm fifthteen dad i'm not little" i say laughing he just shakes his head at me. We walk a little further until we come to a dead end "dad this is a dead end lets go back the other way" my dad raises his hand and steps through a gap in the hedge i stand a little shocked then follow on. I walk through and take in a deep breath because find my self in what appears to be a beautiful eutopia of flowers ponds and trees my father sits and a swing the is tied to the branch of the oak tree. "Surprise!" my father shouts "whoa" is all i mange to get out i was speechless my dad smiles "I thought you would like it". Me and father spent the rest of the day in the secret garden and i feel this overwhelming feeling of happiness and in that moment my life was perfect.

END OF FLASHBACK

I smile at the memory of my father he was such a great man and i loved him so much his soothing voice his kind nature his beautiful eyes. I am so glad i have my fathers eyes dark brown and thick dark brown hair my is also wavy like my fathers hair. I feel a sudden wave of sadness and anger wash over me my emotions are all over the place at the moment i feel like i am being swamped by myslef and it's killing me. My anger soon intesifies and i feel like the whole world has become my enemy and that i can fight it all off. Just then Blake appears and i feel all my anger begining to boil up inside me "what do you want" i ask through gritted teeth my fists are clenched "nothing i came to see if you were okay" i scoff at his remark "oh so now you care" he just looks at me confused "what?" he asks. We both just stare at each other for a moment thats when i explode "that's right you heard me you just left me the other day on the peir with nothing but cruel last words and i am sick of being treated like trash to eveyone i get beaten by my horrid fiancé and bullied by my mother and now you are about to start too i don't think so ! " i feel the anger bulding up even more Blake just stares at me with a look of gulit and pain. I turn and storm off "Diana come back DIANA!" i hear Blake shouting out i begin to run but i trip and fall but i scramble back to my feet. I am about to run again but Blake grabs me "don't do this" he basically pleads "do what?" i ask "please don't crush my soul" he croaks tears in his eyes. I study his face i see the pain i feel in his eyes and the fear i have in his voice "But you and many have crushed mine" i say whispering looking into his blue orbs and with that i walk away.