Little GRACE

PaGe of DiVorcE

I stared deep down at my own reflection on the peaceful water of a small pond in the middle of the jungle. I rummaged through my mind with a hopeful thought that i could rewind my life and fix everything but little did i know that i could do nothing. I only could only step to the front and move on with my soul trapped in the past of sorrow.

I sighed deeply and lift my head to look at the sky that slowly engulfed with darkness.
"Mom...Dad....i missed you guys.." i whispered. I hugged my knees together and buried my face onto my knees.
Sigh. Sigh. Cry. It was too painful that sighing couldn't ease the pain that piercing through my beating heart.

It's all begun when i was 16 years of age. I was a happy girl with happy parents, happy life in a modest house but comfortable. My house was near jungle and away from neighbourhood. No loud noises, no cars, just bicycles. I loved it. I love the silence of the jungle , it always gave me the calmness that i needed the most but now i hated it. I hated it after that day.

My parents were suddenly became moody for days, they were not talking to each other nor sleeping together in the same room. I grew worried and I tried to talk to them but neither of them want to talk about it to me yet my mom broke the silence between them with a disappointing approach.

"I am leaving.." she said in monotone.
"Wha-" i was about to say something but my father cut me.
"you're leaving us for your stupid reason? You want to chase your dream?" My dad said with a scowl.

My mom rolled her eyes in annoyance and totally already grew tired of my dad.
"It's better than staying near the jungle like a family of monkeys" my mom said as she crossed her arms across her chest.
I fell a pang through my heart as if her words pierced through my ears and went to my heart to slap the shit out of it.

"Mom? Why did you want to leave us? Did i...did we do something wrong?" I said softly, not wanting to pour a gasoline over the raging blaze. My mom turned to look at me and shot me with her sharp glare.

"Don't ever call me as your mom.. both of you are nothing but a disgrace. I am tired staying here.. i want to become rich! I want to have a big house and travel all around the world!"

Pang!

My Mom's head turned to her side and stayed still until her hand reached her cheek that was red because of my father.
My father slapped her. My father slapped my mom. I froze on my spot and literally didn't believe of what just happened right before my eyes.

"Don't you ever...call my daughter a disgrace.. if you want to call me a disgrace then go on but not my daughter..." my father said, he tried to regain his composure to avoid himself from landing another hit until a honk could be heard from the outside of the house.
My mom lift her head and a smile formed on her face yet her eyes were shattering in million pieces.

"Fine then...you are a disgrace... i will leave you with YOUR daughter..forever" my mom said as she pressed the bolded word then walked away to her room. A moment later, she came out with a luggage beside her and kicked the door open without even turning to me or my father.

I wanted to stop her. I wanted to hug her.
My father held my shoulders and keep me behind him then turned to look at me.
"Starting today... you don't have a mother..." he said while looking straight into my eyes. I felt something as i stared back. His eyes of anger was also filled with sadness and regret. He doesn't want this to happen either to my mom or me but it had to be done. Fate choose my life to be this way and both my father and I accept it with an open arms.
I put my hands on his cheeks before I wipe his tears. He didn't realized that he was crying until i wiped his tear. His breathing was harsh as he pulled me into a tight hug.

"I am sorry,My daughter....i failed.." he said. I patted his back to calm my dear father down. It was weird because i didn't even shed a tear as if i accept everything that happen to me. No.. i didn't shed a tear because i accepted of what happened to me, i didn't shed a tear because i had to be strong for my father. I had to be.

Dear father,

Your daughter will make you proud.