BROKEN

chapter 4

Kiera had woken before her alarm clock could even think of making noise, she had been restless in the night waking up every two hours checking the time on her alarm clock wishing that the hours would fly by soon and she'd be out of this town. She looked on her alarm clock to see that it was now 4:45am, she sigh and rolled over in bed before getting out. She stretched before going to her bathroom to brush her teeth and bathe she had 3hours and fifteen minutes before they hit the road which was too long for her liking.

An hour later she was dressed and ready in a jeans pants and a simple black blouse. she had spent extra long in the bath to burn some time but it was too early. She went downstairs in the kitchen to prepare something to eat, most likely cereal because she didn't know to cook. Once she had tried and almost got the kitchen burnt down. She went down stairs to see that the kitchen was empty, she took milk from the fridge and her favourite cereal trix from the cupboards and a dish. Five minutes later she was done and had nothing to do so she took out her phone and browse through Instagram where she deleted her profile, she was starting from scratch with a new personality, new friends and new pics she wanted nothing to do with her old life. Minutes later footsteps approached her she looked up from her phone to see her mother dressed in a black silk dress that reached above her knees and a red wedge heels with her make up done to perfection.

"Good morning sweetie" her mother came and kiss her on her jaw which generally surprise kiera, it's the first time her mother showed her affection in years, their were always cautious of her.

Getting over the shock she mumbled back a good morning. Her mother made coffee for her and her father that had just walked down stairs and repeated her mother's action only using 'princess'. 'If someone show me any more affection today I might just have an heart attack' she thought .

They put their cups in the sink

"So are you excited or you excited?"her mother asked in a cheerful tone which made her seems younger than her age.

" I guess"was kiera's simple reply. She smiled when her father kissed her mothers forehead.

Her mother's face fell a little "you guess?"

"I mean, yeah very" she smiled showing off her dimples.

"Great! we'll be leaving in the......
......."chloe, her mom trailed off looking at her watch. "Next hour"

"Fantastic"she grin widely. All this time when she was rushing the time and it had passed quickly without her knowing.

"Have you finished packing?"

"Yea, around 10 last night"

"Love the hairstyle by the way, I remember when I was your age and I used to dye my hair all different colours at once and my father- your grandfather used to call me a peacock" she laughed and her father joined. She stared at them open mouthed. Kiera was shocked, at them showing loving affection, then treating her as their daughter, then sharing past now the sat in front of her laughing. She love this side of them; the one that don't look at her as if she's broken but their daughter that they had created, what are the odds here.

When they saw her shocked expression the sobered up a saddened expression now replaced with the smiling one.

"Look princess, your mother and I had realised that we have not been good parents to you-infact we haven't been parents at all, we always through that money is a solution to every problem, we thought you were happy with getting everything you want. We were stupid to think that and we are sorry that you had to go through what you did, to finally made us realise what we have been doing wrong"her father's eyes shone with in shred tears while her mother clutched on to him as if her life depends on it full in silent tears. Kiera on the other hand was just staring at them blinking back the tears that threaten to fall.

"We would love if you could find it in your heart to forgive us and move on like a family this time, we know that sorry won't make you forget all the wrongs we've done you but we want you to know that we are very sorry-" his voice broke at the end. By then the tears in kiera's eyes had been trailing down the length of her face then disappearing in her clothes. Her parents have never been soon opened to her and it made her both sad and happy. Happy that the finally did and sad because she had to go through so much pain before they did.

"I hope we can move from the past and stat over as a family in the future" her parents came over to hug her while she cried. She bobbed her head up and down in their arms before saying 'yes'.

"I've waited so many years just waiting for this- you guys treating me like your own flesh and blood, I've always through that you didn't want me I thought I wasn't good enough for you but for the last couple of years Nana had made me feel like someone, like I was some what needed to somebody and then she was gone, and I was left alone with no one, no friends no family to talk to nothing and on top of that the incident happened- I felt dirty, used, useless and worst of all lonely" her mother sobbed and hold on to her tighter while she just stared at the wall silent tears falling.

"I'm so sorry I failed you as a mother. I should have been there for you, I should have-" she cut her mother off. Looking at her in directly the eye.

"Let me finish"she said her voice void of any emotions.

"I was trapped In the walls of my mind where every words were negative so I tried the one thing I think would set me free, free of all those demons that haunt me in my dreams at night and taunt me by day- I tried to commit suicide-" her mother grasp cutting her. off. A single tear left her Father's eye that he had so hard to contain, he had a murderous look in his eyes while his fist clenched and unclenched seemingly trying to control his anger but he snapped.

"I'm gonna kill ever one that ever hurt you mentally or physically, I'll take those guys from jail and rip them apart with my bear hands!!" He shouted his voice full of venom. Her father was always a calm and compose man but very dangerous and intimidating even to her, so it shocked her to see him get so worked up but she quickly recover from the shock.

"Are you gonna kill your self too, father?"her voice came out low. His expression changed from anger to a guilty one, The one she's used to.

"Because how I see it, you and mom also caused me pain more than they did" her mouth
trembled and tears leak out of her eyes again.

"You guys were the one I wanted to hug me and tell me everything is alright even though it isn't, but no you guys left me in my misery and the times you were around you treated me exactly how i never wanted to feel even though it's what I was- broken. So I did the one thing that would not make me see your expression, I hide away in my room which only made me feel lonelier than I felt. I guess that's one of the reasons why I slept with those boys, to not be so lonely, not only that but to feel wanted by someone even if it's just temporary" she let out a humorless laugh at how pathetic she sounded saying it out loud but she willed herself not to be that broken person again, she would be whole, she would make herself whole. And she would start by saying all these things she had bottle up for years.

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