Save Me

Senior Year

When I saw him, I knew he was special. When I saw him, I knew I'd be okay."

Today, another beginning. I walk into my new school and I see people greeting their friends. Their happiness makes me feel alone.
"One year. Just one year", I repeated in my head.

This was a lonely day for me has sent me really far down. Far down into the rabbit hole, that is depression. I walked for a bit and laid in the grass, watching my breath float to the moon.

The Next day, I walked into my class and saw someone new. He turned around and I stood stunned, when I saw him, I knew he was special. When I saw him, I knew everything would be okay.

Over the next few weeks we became close friends. He would say some sarcastic/clever joke and I'd just laugh. I'd noticed, since moving here, that I was not special, everyone around me seemed so different.

Jareth, the boy from class, was the most extraordinary person i've ever met. He knows so much about many different things. he's taught me so much about music. Never in my life have I met someone so interesting.

We had movies nights at least once a week. Different friends join in, but mostly it was just Jareth, Matt (Jareths best friend), and me.

Jareth and I went around to college visits, one weekend, and both fell in love with one. We both decided to apply. Later, we both received our acceptance letters.

Over Christmas break Matt and Jareth went on a road trip. As they were gone Jareth called me and left a voicemail, "Hey Hun. Matt and I found this beautiful place. I think we need to runaway here, together. So call me back.", This voicemail tugged at my heartstrings, even though it was left jokingly.

Once they came back Jareth told me about a few girls he met. It did hurt me to hear, but I was happy we were this close. He met this girl Julia who caught his interest.

After months of 'talking' she broke it off. Jareth told me how low he was, how tired he was of all this, how much he needed to get out of high school. He seemed depressed. I looked to him and said, "If you die, I die".

Jareth was getting drunk or high daily. I'd join in on weekends, he was just distant. Hooking up with a few different girls in a week and procrastinating schoolwork.

One night Matt and I, joined Jareth. After a couple of drinks in, we were all singing and goofing around. It was a great night.

Last week of school, it all came down to our exams. I continuously worried about the possibility of my best friend not graduating with me. But he passed !

As we graduated, I realized. I loved him. I loved him more a boyfriend, more than anyone I'd known or would know, because he's my person.