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Help....please.

I........really really need help...

Now, I don't post much....but I wasn't on here at all for a long time but,

It's gotten worse. I only say "health and family" issues but I never dwell deeper.

Because it's not like anyone on the Internet should know but, my brother.....he....

I'll just show you...

He did this to me....now I don't care that it was a bottle cap....I care that it became a welt.

I was able to run away from him this time and actually get pictures.

I no longer wear rings, too dangly earrings and bracelets.

And I never show him my art or writing.

And it's not constructive criticism

He ripped up a drawing I spent forever on because he didn't like the colors.......

And so many times he's hurt me. And yet when I try to talk to him he tells me to stop being such a pussy....

I'm sorry but I'm tired of bruises and welts.

And yet, my mom wants me to act like this never happened.

I messaged her the pictures and she didn't care. She didn't call after me when I ran, and got mad at me for being scared.

Why? I'm terrified of saying the wrong thing around him
......he's just like Chris and Ken. ...

And he's even more terrifying when he's drunk.

I'm scared. And I'm sorry......

I'm sorry Damon, Devon, Alexis and Graham.... that I'm not "strong enough" for your standards now.

I've hurt too many people....that's why I'm weak. I'm scared. I don't want to be that person anymore....

But....

If.....

That's who you want.....

If you don't want Rhea anymore.....

I can bring back Rage.

I can be who I was.........

I'll be a fucking nightmare.

If that's who you want back, then fine.

No

More

Ms

Nice

Girl

I've finally snapped.

Heh....it's been a year but you did it.

I'M BACK IN FUCKING BUSINESS IF YOU WANNA SAY ONE MORE THING ABOUT HOW I'M A PIECE OF SHIT  I'LL GLADLY FUCKING AGREE BEFORE TALKING ABOUT YOUR INSECURITIES AND FAULTS.

I'LL. BREAK. YOU. DOWN.

so......try me. I fucking DARE you.

Fuck you  Graham.

Fuck everything about you.

I ain't gonna hide no more.