[SCREAMS EXTERNALLY] (Discontinued)

F I V E

"I...." I paused for a moment, what am I doing? This isn't me! I don't like Katie! I think...

"You what?! What Kyle?! What?!"
She asked. "Just....Just leave me alone."

Her eyes were looking at the floor. I slowly let my hands fall, she slipped out... and walked away. I felt my eyes fill up with tears. There was a pain in my chest.... I ran out of the alleyway and caught up to her and grabbed her wrist then turned her around and grabbed the other one as well. I closed my eyes tightly.

"I think I like you!!!"
I yelled. There was silence. I felt my face heat up. My heart was beating quickly. And I was out of breath. When I open my eyes, Katie was surprised. But there was a figure behind her. Javier was behind her.....

"....I....I....." She stuttered, her face went pink, but then her eye brows furrowed down. She yanked away from my grasp and stepped back. She didn't look at me.

"No, you don't. You just think that way. But you don't. You never have and you never will!" And she took of running.

"KAITE! WAIT!" Javier ran after her.

I fell on my knees. My breath was shaky

What....what just happened.....

I put my hands to my face.

"Am...am I....crying....?" I asked myself... I chuckled. And then I laughed a little, slowly that laugh turned into a small cry. Then sobbing. I just realized that I have been in love with a girl and didn't realize it.....

I sobbed for what seemed hours, I stood up slowly. I walked to a liquor store that was near here, I was good friends with the manager.

My eyes were red from all the crying. Who knew that Katie would be the first one to ever make me cry. I walked through the automatic sliding door and I put the hood from my black hoodie on....

"Hey, is Mike here?"
I asked the cashier. It was a woman who looked to be in her twenties. She had blonde hair and hazelnut eyes.

"Um, yeah he's in the back room, want me to get him for you?" She asked.

"Please...."

She went to the back room and in a minute out came Mike
"Hey Kyle! You need a 'Refilling'?" He asked. He was a good looking guy who was three years older than me. He had black hair and icy blue eyes, he was muscular too, and tall.

"Yeah, the usual please..." I said

"Hey, Kyle, your eyes are red. Have you been...." he leaned in closer. "smoking...?"

I stood there for a bit. "Sure."

He nodded, handed me a pack of beer and J made my way out to my hide out, an abandoned beach house on a rocky shore in front of the ocean. No one has ever gone in there, so I cleaned it up a bit and it became my area. It was behind a first of palm trees and bamboo, it was hidden pretty well and the only way to see it is if you swam in front of it. It was made of bamboo packed tightly together, a glass window of a great view on the ocean. Only for me. I walked through the door as I cracked a bottle open with my hands, it was a twist off, nothing special. I chugged it. My thoughts soon led to Katie.... her hair felt so soft when I put the flower crown on her silky brown hair, her grey eyes sparkled at the sight of the dragon playground and the fireflies and her smile was so bright.... brighter than the fireflies....

I chuckled to myself, yeah, I liked her.... but then my memory shifted to when I was rejected... and when she told Javier she loved him... and only liked me....

"Dammit! Three years she was in love with me! I have been in love with her for a long time too! I always rejected that feeling! Dammit! Why? Dammit! Dammit all!"
I yelled in anger and punched the wall, my knuckles started bleeding..... because i draped the on the bamboo...Thankfully I put a first aid kit in the bathroom.

"Ah, shit... It hurts..." I said as I put my hand under the sink water. Stupid manager didn't cut the water off for this beach house. But they did with the lights, so I had to buy a ton of flashlights and candles, and fairy lights, and don't forget the pile of batteries in the corner. Once I was done I poured a bit of rubbing alcohol on my wound, I bit my lip since it sting a little, and finally I wrapped it. I leaned back against the wall and I felt the tears coming back.

"I lost her...." I whispered to myself.
"I lost her...."

I cracked open another bottle as I stared off into the ocean....

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Yay, another upload. Kyles love life had just begun and ended! Or did it end?
We will find out in the next upcoming chapters! Stay tuned! I try to upload every Monday or Tuesday!

~ Maskie