Red Tulips (complete)

The red water

"Gay boy gay can't get a boyfriend so sad waaawawawa" Henry teased yet again but "My names topaz and yeah in the gay boy get the fuck over it "I shouted at yet another ass hole making fun of me ,I ran down the street till I got home .
"Shit the doors locked"I said out loud which apparently my number heard ,she's not exactly the nicest homophobia well oveasly
"Topaz stop swearing"she shouted out her window as the wind blew past her making the very fragile metreal covering her body blow away revealing it all
"Jezz Miss adems put some clothes on please"I shouted back
She pulled her head back in to her house.
I reched in to my poket and grabbed my keys finally opening my door running in up to my bedroom
"Fucking finally" I saghed slumping down on to my door
As I looked around my room I saw my open pencil case I stood up and reched in to it pulling out my pencil sharpener
I had never cut my self before but I had definitely thought about it more then once
I put the sharpener on the floor and slammed my foot on to it as hard as I could the blue plastic shattered in to 6 difrent pieces and all that was left was the silver blade and a screw ,I picked up the shiny metal pulling the screw out
"What els am I supposed to do"I cried as a tear hit the metal
I walked into the bathroom,looked the door the pulled of my shirt looking in to the mirror all I saw was the 'faggot' I was I came out to my friends last year that was also the time I lost all my friends they all soon told everyone I was gay and that was it I was that gay kid .
I turned my arm over that was stained with bruises from Henry the jackass who beats me up every day
As I put the blade to my upper arm dragging it across my skin ,blood dripping down my arm it stung but it felt .... good I did it again and again till my hole arm was red with blood...my blood
"Topaz I'm homeee"my mums voice ecode throw the small house
"Shit"was all I cold say as I took the rest of my clothes of and got in the shower turning it on
"I'm in the shower"I yelled down to my mum hopefully that wold by be some time
I just stood there watching the red water swirl in to the drain.