Not So Innocent (ON HOLD)

Thoughts of Love.

Love is for the weak? More like we're weak without love.

"A little early, don't you think?" Xavier spoke as he walked through the gate of the school. I sat on the bench, smiling at him. It was an hour early before school started. I could explain. "I take time to think before actually going into the school of thoughts. I mean, the school makes us think more than out here, right?" I laughed, explaining, as I stare at the sky. The school makes us have various of thoughts we don't want. Like, what if I don't make any friends? What if I'll be a loner? Those are the thoughts I don't want to think about during class. So, might as well do it out here. At least I'll be focused.

I closed my eyes with my head arched back. Sleeves and jeans covered my skin as always. I'm insecure of myself. I really don't like how I am. I wrap my fingers around my neck as I let out a breathless sigh. Life is hard without love. You might think I'm talking about the 'dating' kind of love, but family matters. It makes me weak to know that my own family might be in danger without knowing it. Love is needed in this world, or we would be heartless our whole entire life. We can't control our emotions.

Slowly sinking in my own world, I was interrupted by the sound of Xavier's voice. "You look cute like this." He whispers as if he thinks I couldn't hear him. I leaned back and stared at him. He stared back and we basically made contact. I looked away before it could get any awkward than this. I blushed a light shade of pink as I let out a fake cough. "Okay. I'm ready for the day." I stood up and started walking towards the hallway where my locker was. Xavier followed as always. When I reached my locker, I look around and spotted Troye with Isabelle and Melissa. I smiled as I opened my locker. "Hey.." I trailed off.

"Hm?"

"Why were you so interested in me when we first met? There are other prettier girls other than me." I laughed at my sentence. I didn't want him to say anything nice back. I don't expect him to say-

"It's because I like you. You didn't notice? You were actually the first girl to catch my attention. Other girls would've needed to go up to me and talk to me to start a conversation." He chuckled as he explained the whole, hard-to-get situation of his part. I blushed at his words and shook his head.

"Impossible." There was no way that he could like me. Besides, I spent my whole weekend thinking about Troye. Considering, I never got his phone number.

"Why would you think that no guy wouldn't like you? You're beautiful, smart, kind, and adorably shy." He explained. I felt like he just wanted me to fall for him. Many guys have done that to me and they have said the same phrases. The problem is..

I don't know if it's the real thing or not.

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After school, I walked home alone. I didn't want to fall for Xavier. I already have Troye to worry about in my life. I don't know if I like Troye, but there's something about him that makes him different. No, it's not the fact that he's shy around girls. That's adorable, but that's not it. He understands how it feels like to struggle in socializing and he understands how it feels to be alone. I've been alone my whole life ever since my parents died. I don't live by myself. I live with my younger cousins. Which is a huge pain, plus my older brother works to help our aunt with the rent. He's only nineteen. I could see that he's stressed and sometimes I really want to stand up and help. But I'm not old enough and my brother thinks it'll tire me out. I looked down at the floor and sighed.

Thoughts filled and flooded my mind, until I spot a brunette. Troye? I open my mouth to scream out his name, until I spotted a blonde in front of him. I hid in an alleyway quickly and peeked at them. I clenched onto my chest and suddenly felt a few tears running down my cheek. What is this feeling? I question myself as I suddenly start running to wherever. I just wanted to be alone right now. I didn't care about anything else. All I had in my head was Troye..

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The next few chapters will be exciting i swear c':