midnight word vomit

『 You 』

|| To the boy that I always somehow drew unconsciously, the unknown person that settles in my dreams and makes himself the mystery that plagued my mind. I don't know who you are but I'm determined to find out soon. I will meet you soon.

You seemed to always stay in the shadow of my thoughts, hiding behind the crevices, dark corners, and alleyways of my mind. You were a face I couldn't remember, something like a memory forcefully pushed so far back that I can't even remember repressing it yet you manifest yourself in the mindless things I do.

It was said that the brain couldn't just make up a face, I have to had seen you. In what part of my daily life did you appear, how did you know how to react to the unusual things I do, how come someone I've never seen in full physicality appears to know so much of who I am than myself.

What happened to you? What did you do to get banished from my present state of mind? Maybe you're an amalgam of the person I've always wanted, someone who understood the void in my head, how it can both be a blessing and a curse. Maybe you are real, I just have to find where you are.