Because I'm a liar

Chapter 8

"You could've let me die"
Ouma mumbled. 
"At least you would've ended the suffering of everyone else, after all I'm just a idiotic liar that would only make those around him suffer.  Now everyone has to suffer living with an annoying pest.  Everyone is better off without me, you could've let me die and bring everyone happiness" he said with a dark twisted smile similar to the one on his face when he attempted suicide.  Even though he smiled everyone knew he was sad inside.  Ouma started to cry as everyone stared at him in disbelief. 
"I can't believe you think that" Amami said as he could finally saw Ouma's true pain. 
"But... if you hate your own lying...then why do continue to act like that"

"Because... no one would accept a weakling like me...I- I'm just a waste of time, I mean only a crybaby like me would spend hours crying and wanting to die.  I'm to emotional for my own good... just a boring, emotional, good for nothing mistake!" Ouma said talking more to himself than anyone else.  Amami held Ouma's hand. 

"Don't think like that Ouma.  We're glad you're still here" Amami said.  Ouma's tears dropped onto the hospital bed.

"I guess you guys... Don't hate me?" Ouma said lying a little as he knew once this was over everyone would hate him again. 
"...I- I still want to end this.  I'll always end up hurting someone"  Ouma he mumbled truthfully to cancel out his lying. 
"No matter how I look at it I'm hopeless..." he said as he showed the same broken smile from before. 
"You know what, I know once this is long forgotten everyone will revert back to hating me.  So there, one of my earlier statements was a mere lie.  Just stop trying to comfort me, it will just hurt me more when it's all over." Said Ouma, smiling cruelly.  Amami pulled Ouma in closer and held his arms around him tightly. 

"Are you alright?  Tell me what's wrong." 

"A-Amami!?" Ouma said flustered

"I know you're not okay.  Please, tell me what's wrong."  Amami said.  Ouma never felt like crying more than he did now.  He pushed Amami away and hid under the covers of the hospital bed.  He didn't want Amami to see him cry as violently as he knew he would.
"Ouma?!"

"D- Don't talk to me!  Leave me alone!!!"  Ouma screamed crying.  At last it was too late, Ouma was crying so much his eyes were hurting.