Law and Order SVU: Olivia Benson's Story

Issue Out 2

******* Next Day *****

Olivia: Good Morning, where's Fin?

Amanda: He's in your office. Someone's here to see you.

Olivia: oh really who

Amanda: (looks at the door) see for yourself...

Olivia: (walks in office) Hey Fin.. who is this ...

Fin: this is Nick..

Olivia: Nick. I didnt recognize you with the yeah... how have you been hows therapy ?

Amaro: Everythings good.. everythings good. They have me working as a traffic cop.

Olivia: thats good Nick. but I still dont understand why you're here.

Amaro: Let me be more clear... im working as an undercover traffic cop. now I dont know what fbi is up too but I nees you watch me closely..

Olivia: Nick... I cant thats federal level im not messing with that.

Amaro: Come on Liv I trust you...

Olivia: but I dont trust you so how do I know if you're setting me up or not?

Amaro: Im not setting you up. you have to trust me please...

Olivia: trust is hard to gain back..

Amaro: I know.. I know it is ...

Olivia: ok im giving you one chance.. you hear me?

Amaro: Thank you so much Liv (he hugs her and leaves)

Olivia: pass him twice a day for me Fin on your way to work and on your way home.. please update me if anything looks strange.

Fin: Are you sure about this ?

Olivia: No im really not but I want him back..

Fin: I understand he was your partner byt look how he almost destroyed you..

Olivia: because I killed his wife

Fin: no some driver killed his wife you tried to help her..

Olivia: I know..  its just

Fin: its just nothing.. go home. today is slow be with your daughter. I got this.

Olivia: thanks Fin.

Fin: no problem..

Olivia: (walks out) bye guys..

Amanda: leaving so soon?

Olivia: well today is slow.. so im taking the day Fin's in charge..

Amanda: ok Captain.. you ok?

Olivia: Yes.. im fine. Why wouldnt I be?

Amanda: No I just thought... never mind. have a nice day..

Olivia: you too..

************* Olivia makes it home ****

Olivia: omg today wasnt a long day miracle..

Miracle: Mommy mommy...

Olivia: yeah thats right Mommy Mommy

Miracle: (starts crying)

Olivia: why are you crying little girl?

Miracle: milk...milk

Olivia: oh you want some milk.. (she gives her bottle Haden walks in )

Haden: Wow honey... You're here early..

Olivia: today was slow.. why are you standing at the door?

Haden: because I couldnt surprise you with this (he pulls flowers from his back)

Olivia: Omg theyre beautiful put them in a vase (she lays miracle on the sofa)

Haden: they were on sale so I thought what the hell.. its for my wife...

Olivia: They're beautiful (she kisses him)

Haden: owwh again? they need to have more slow days...

Olivia: No not tonight.. im not in the mood.

Haden: ok.. well im going shower then to bed.. I'll put Miracle in her bed.

Olivia: thanks I'll be laying down or sleep..

Haden: ok honey...

Olivia: All clean (she laughs)

Haden: ok Liv but since we're getting married I want us to be completely honest with each other..

Olivia: what are you saying?

Haden: I'll go first. you know I have an older daughter with my first wife. right? and you know I've had some issues in the past trying to communicate with them.. I just want to be a good father and I dont want you to think im anything like that prison guard or lewis or brian. so about the other night when we were having sex and you said stop dont think I was forcing you it was just me not really thinking at the moment.

Olivia: No, Haden you are a great father to all of your children. & about the other night I was just having flashbacks. Ive never told you this but I always seem to relive my attacks in a dream or flashback.

Haden: What happened between you and the prison guard and lewis and brian ?

Olivia: well you know about brian..

Haden: do I know everything?

Olivia: yes & besides you dont need to hear this I mean the images it puts into your head...

Haden: I want them to get out of your head...

Olivia: thats not possible. see they will never leave I just have to accept what happen and move on.

Haden: but talking will help and plus I want to know. I want to know what you're feeling...

Olivia: one year I was undercover as a prison guard helping a girl named Ashley and her mom who died... I wasnt treated special just another girl in jail.. my record showed drug abuse sexual abuse and mental issues.. Fin was there to help me. you ever had someone probe your body well thats what happen to me one the first day...  he put his and all over my body (she tears up) but Fin was there.. days went by then medical officials thought the prison had a disease going around so I started a riot... the prison guard cuffed me and took me into the basement we fought... I fought like hell.. he hand cuffed me to the door and tried to force himself in my mouth but Fin made it there just in time.. he only brought up the basement once after that and we only speak of it time to time because we only know what happen down there...

Haden: aww sweetie lay on me.. yes lay on me.. im so sorry im really sorry.. but I do want to hear about lewis..

Olivia: Lewis... he kidnapped me. the first day he beat me with my gun tied me to a chair branded me with keys and a hanger.. he drove me around shoved pills down my throught with liquor.. he brought me to this cabin and (she pauses) and.. he thru me on the bed he took so long ... but I made him I was aggravating him I told him he couldnt handle a woman like me I told him he should put me on all fours and do me from behind.. he made him but he didnt that time he was getting ready to um buckle my pants and I broke free and I beat him... the second time around he moved my location I cant tell you exactly where but I met him to save a little girl I made it there I told him let the little girl go but he said he can rape me and let the girl watch or rape her and let me watch I told him rape me.. he brought me to the table and tied my legs up spreaded apart and my hands spreaded apart he took my clothes aloose and raped me.. he told me knew I liked it that way even though it wasnt all fours I told the girl not to look I told her keep her eyes clothes as he was raping me all I cant think of was this ever going to end I kept crying and begging for him to stop but all he said was oh you want more..

Haden: baby... you wont ever have to worry about that.. I got you..

Olivia: (crying) I know honey I knowm.

Haden: just us... our family now .