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Recent studies on depression report that folks diagnosed with it actually laugh more, laugh longer and laugh harder that people without depression. People with depression also spend more time trying to make people laugh, telling jokes and trying to lighten the mood than those without depression. People with depression are more caring and tender partners, better friends and kinder people then those who are depression free. People with depression usually act the completely opposite way then you'd think; this is largely why when people commit suicide their family never sees it coming.
Love yourselves and your friends. You are never what you think you are. Ugly? You're just not your type. Fat? People have different body shapes, some look better when they're more curvy and slightly chubby, some look good fit and slim. Not everyone looks good slim. I'm thin, 61 inches (like 5'1 or somethin) and 90 pounds. Yeah sure I'm slim but it's only because my shit eating habits and high metabolism. I can see some of my ribs and my pelvic bones. It's probably not healthy but i don't want to eat a lot and make my mom but more food then we need. No one wants to date you? Not everything's about sex, love, and how you look. Sure people like a pretty woman or a sexy man but societies that focus on beauty and stuff, always fail. Besides, you'll find someone. There's millions of nice people who'll love you for you and not your ass or face. Think you're too "flawed"? Most people who find problems with themselves explode that flaw. They're really hard on themselves and beat themselves down. I dated a girl who claimed she was to messed up and flawed to be fixed when the only problem was she couldn't pry her fucking head out of her damn ass. She would start issues with her friends and claim she was the victim and because she was depressed couldn't possibly have started it. She would blow issues out of proportion and blame herself. One day I tried to tell her about my stress, because I'm naturally a very high stress person and my school is a shit environment, and she began blaming herself automatically and tried to kill herself like she did with every other time I told her my problem. She was so deep in her depression and problems she was wallowing in noting but self pity. She refused to help herself and do anything. Don't be that person. Because then yes, everyone will leave you just like I decided to end pur arguing because she started shit with me and blamed all of her depression on me even though I left her better then when I found her. I blocked her and deleted her number and never fucking went back to that shit. I hadn't left her when I noticed problems because I had promised I wouldn't leave and I seriously thought I could help her, but some people can only help themselves.
I don't care who you are, what you weigh, and what you look like. The only thing that matters is personality. Be what you want and do as you want as long as it doesn't harm you or the others around you. It's ok to be selfish and do what you want and buy what you like and turn stuff down. If people say you're rude for it, tell them that you are your own person and don't desire to go or have to. Self harm also isn't ok. If you think it hurts no one but you, you're dead ass god damned fucking wrong. It makes anyone that's trying to help you and your parents feel like they're failing you. It doesn't hurt just you. It hurts everyone that loves you, and trust me, you say no one loves you. But there's so many nice and kind people that would love you. You just habe to put you and your problems out there then they'll come. Also imagine having children and they see your scars and think since their parent did it that it's fine for them to do it. I fully plan on having kids and I have self harmed. I have scars that I may one day have to explain to my children. Plus if you think cutting helps it's nothing but i cycle of addiction and disappointment. You get down so you turn to you're "friend" and then you feel disappointed and disgusted but you don't stop because you think it's the only thing that will help you. So you do it again.
