Tony x reader

Part 8

They told you he was injured badly,  had some broken bone,a broken arm,  paralyzed legs, and 3 broken ribs,  luckily no harm in is system.  But he was unconscious.  The doctor let you to see him. As you entered, tears were strolling down your face. You sat down on a chair next to Tony's. You looked at him with pain. The group stayed there for a while and left. You stayed there for the night. "Tony, please don't leave me, I need you... I love you with all of my heart. I can't lose you, i lost everything I loved, I can't lose you now.... Please" tears strolled down and you left. You went to the empty tower. You weren't hungry, just starving for love, affection and care. You head to your shared room and changed into Tony's favorite ACDC shirt. You fell asleep with emptiness, pain, rage, tears, and sadness. You were only able to sleep for a short amount of time since you kept having the same nightmare over and over again, Tony's death. Every week you would go and see him. But, more and more of pain would kill you. Scars would be on your waist, legs and wrist. When you got home from visiting Tony, you went to the bathroom and took out a wooden box. As you opened the box, two, shiny, blades, were calling your attention. You  took one out and played it as a bow, and your arm as a violin. Blood drips down, no pain, just relief. Tears strolled down as more cuts drew across your arm. Then your phone rang. You wiped your tears and cleared your throat. "(Y/n), you need to get your ass over here now!!  Tony just woke up!! " Nat yelled with happiness. You cleaned yourself up and raced to the hospital. When you arrived your heard a weak call from Tony. You went to the bed and kissed him with tears. "Tony, I'm sorry this was all my fault!  I should of never left you in the tower-" you were cut of by his finger. "Babe, it's not your fault, and all that matters I'm alive" he said with a weak smile, wiping your tears. The doctors came in and said he needed to stay for three days and he was good to go. The team was happy, mostly you. The team left hours later while you stayed, talking to Tony. Eventually he saw a couple of cuts on your arm. "Babe,  what happened to your arm" he asked. "Oh, just some cuts from training" you said trying not to break. "You sure" he said worried. "Yea, I'm sure, don't worry. " you said with a fake smile. As the three days passed. Tony w back with you. You both were non stop talking and being together. Until one day, you went out with Natasha to go eat. Tony was still figuring why you would always wear long sleeves and pants. You never wore it all the time. "Jarvis, show me what (y/n)  was doing while I was gone" he asked. Jarvis pulled out recordings of you crying, not eating, and harming yourself. He called the group to head to the Towers. As they arrived except for you and Nat, he needed to talk the team about this.