Love Under Parasols

Art. Tears. Soldier.

"Isn't she working too hard?"

"Momo-ssi is amazing!"

"She looks gorgeous in person. Photographs do not give justice to her."

Whisper after whisper, I danced harder, better, with more power. "Momo, stop," Bora-unnie stopped me. I looked at her, breathing heavily. "The shoot's done."

I nodded and went inside the dressing room. I've been trying to distract myself these past few weeks. Jeongyeon remained true to her words but it doesn't mean I have forgotten how it felt like to be left hanging.

"You seem distracted," I looked at the other side of the room and saw Mina playing on her PSP. "That's not good."

"Since when did you care about anything aside from that video game of yours?" I slumped beside her and sighed. "I'm tired, Mitang."

During my stay as an artist, Mina and I have become close because we're both dancers. We often catch each other inside the dancing studio, dead beat from training.

"I told you to stop thinking about Jeongyeon, didn't I?" she turned off her video game and turned to me. "I don't get why you're still staying with her when the only thing you two do is have sex."

I grabbed a towel and wiped the sweat I got from all the dancing I did, "I love her, okay?"

Mina shrugged, "Love doesn't equal to stupidity. One day you'll find yourself empty because you keep on giving yourself to her."

"Ya, she's your producer. Why are you like that?"

She stood up and fixed her costume, she's next in dancing, "She's a great producer but that doesn't mean I agree with her ways. Especially with all the sleeping around happening." She went out of our dressing room and left me.

I hate it when she's right.

After changing into usual clothes, I was already walking with Bora-unnie when Jeongyeon arrived, "Momo!" she was smiling from ear to ear.

I heard my manager giggle, "Looks like I'll be going home alone today." she scurried off to the car. I sighed and turned to Jeongyeon.

"I told you, it's okay if you're busy," I said. She just shrugged and grabbed my bad. "Ya, Jeongyeon, you don't listen, do you?"

"I told you that I'll make up to you. I meant it," she said. "It was my fault, okay? I forgot about our plan because something came up."

Up to this day, she still hasn't told me that she was with Hyerin. I don't want to force it out of her but I just want to know why she's hiding it from me.

Dinner was okay. I mean, I enjoy my time with Jeongyeon especially when she gives all of her attention to me. For some reason, she makes me feel like she actually has feelings for me but in reality, I know she's sill head over heels in love with Hyerin. The girl could snap her fingers and Jeongyeon will be like a puppy following her orders. Stupid, yes, but it's what love is.

Maybe I'm like that too. Maybe Jeongyeon can snap her fingers, ask me to follow her as she jumps to a pit of never ending cycle of unrequited love, and I'd still follow her. I don't even know why I even love this woman in front of me. She's selfish, she leaves me hanging, she forgets about me. But still, at the end of the day, I'd still go back to her.

"A penny for your thoughts?" she held my hand and looked at me. We already finished eating and she was waiting for the waiter to get us the bill.

"I'm just thinking about what will happen," I honestly answered.

Jeongyeon made me touch her face and closed her eyes, "What about it?"

"Do you like me?" I asked her. I don't know if I'm ready to hear her answer but I guess no matter what it is, I'll accept. I'm that stupid, huh?