Silent words

Miss you

"Babyyy~~" A familiar voice woke him up from his sleep. This person has such a beautiful mesmerizing voice that makes his heart melt whenever he hears it. He probably does not have the best voice in the world, but to him, his voice is his absolute best.

He opened his eyes, turned his head sideways to look at this precious human being right beside him, leaning on him as if his shoulder is a pillow.

"Yes? What's wrong?"

"I'm cold~~ Can you hug me? ~" Not even waiting for Toru to answer, he inched closer to Toru, about to throw his arms on Toru right when he says 'yes'.

"That's because you are not wearing your hoodie..." Toru lamented, but nevertheless he pulled him into an embrace, hugging his torso to protect him from the cold.

"Thank you baby~" he planted a quick kiss on Toru's lips...

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I'm lying here on a bed

My eyes are closed but I'm awake

I wish this dream would never end

You'd still be next to me

Toru opened his eyes, staring at the blank ceiling of his room. He then turned his head sideways, there's no one sleeping beside him.

"The hell, why I'm always waking up at such an awful time...?" he groaned, slapping a hand towards his face.

Toru has lost count how many times he has dreamt of that, to the point it's starting to get very disturbing. He is no longer with Taka, in fact he was the one who wanted to break up with him, but seemed like he wasn't unable to taste the feeling of relieve and freedom after walking out of Taka's life. He has been not sleeping well, dreaming of Taka every night, waking up right at the moment when Taka kissed him in his dream.

He didn't know he misses Taka so much.

He wishes he never wakes up, cause he realized how dreams are always much more beautiful than reality...

I thought this would be easier

I'd do my thing and this would work

But now I'm here trying to find a song

To make this emptiness disappear

How all these happened? Until he finally calmed himself down and start thinking things through, he realized how immature and unreasonable he was regarding his relationship with Taka. He was aware that everyone was tired because of working non-stop, especially Taka who has been writing and arranging songs with him. However he seemed to forget that Taka also needs some rest despite how energetic he is; he forgot that his energy level was getting low and he really needs to stop crashing against the problems they are facing, because rage and impulse are not going to solve anything.

He seemed to be unconsciously taking Taka for granted, including shouting at him or talking to him at a rude manner, whilst he never talked to his other two members Tomoya and Ryota in such way no matter how tired he is because he knows that he will be in big trouble if either Tomoya or Ryota really gets angry at his attitude. But as the saying goes "We tend to show our worst temper in front of the person that is the closest to us", Taka unfortunately became his punchbag as he attempts to throw away his negative emotions. He found himself no longer feeling apologetic towards Taka whenever he shouts at him, perhaps he unconsciously thinks that Taka will always forgive him no matter how, because Taka loves him.

It seemed to be the case, while Taka, on the other hand, is also getting worse.

It might be because of tiredness which led to easier frustration, Taka was unable to control his emotions very well, while Toru himself started getting very petty over small matters, oversensitive can be the right word. He couldn't stand Taka raising his voice at him, even when Taka doesn't really mean it, he still needs to give him a good scolding to remind him how terrible he is as a person.