Times running out⏱️🖤

I'm in a maze there's clocks and doors surrounding me all the clocks start at 1:45 am and go off at midnight. Every time the clock dings it means time is running out (20 minuets go by) I can still hear the clocks ding and every time they do that means you have 5 seconds to run out of the maze. But there's a problem I'm not fast enough to run before the time runs out my mind can't even function. My mind says let everything go let everyone else hurt you let people hurt you because your not worth the effort or time. But my heart says leave let them all just forget you even existed that you were breathing and your heart was beating. Both thoughts are horrific but it's how I feel trapped,unheard, and not worth anything every time a clock goes off I freeze and I can't breathe. But the clocks didn't just count the time in my mind so I can stop myself from sleeping it stopped me from the outside world the maze and clocks protect me. Each night when the clocks ring at midnight I feel my body fading I can't walk or breathe. I'm just laying in the middle of the maze looking at the stars thinking, breathing about how I've let everyone one down and how I can't ever be good enough for anyone not even myself. I'll never feel good enough as I'm laying in the maze I feel it collapsing and as its collapsing I feel these metal ropes going all across my body hugging me tight so I don't escape. As I lay there I feel nothing I can't breathe or move I close my eyes and I say to myself look up at the stars because your there you just can't see me because I'm a shadow with the tiniest bit of light. I never showed my true colors or my true feelings to the world and I could have done better but instead I let myself go and fall apart and I've escaped the maze and I'm in rose petals in a garden with the tiniest bit of light showing through, I'll always be a shadow in my head but my heart will always be a star because it shines brighter than the sun.-ShadowEclipse78🖤