The Dark Side (COMPLETED)

The Letter

First of all, I would like to express my sincere gratitude to all those who decided to give this book a try. Thank you so much for supporting this book. When I started this book, I had never thought that I would receive such positive response on just the introductory part.
A big thanks to all those readers who adorned the comment box with extremely sweet and motivating messages. Believe me, I was filled with a new enthusiasm the moment I read them. I was a little hesitant about this story but seeing the love and support from all of you, I have become all the more confident.
Thank you so much 💫💫.
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This piece of work is not a full fledged story. It was initially just a thought written in over 1 - 2 pages however while editing, it has streched to over 4-5 pages.

**** This has hence become a one shot that was too long so I have divided it into 2 chapters****
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Dear Mom, Dad and Di......

Leave aside the dark nights, now even the bright sunny day haunts me. For everyone else a new day marks the beginning of new hopes and new opportunities but for me, the rising of the sun brings with it, new fears...fears of the new tortures and the pain that they would bring, both physical and mental. The fear of those hands moving on my back in the most awkward and pathetic manner constantly lingers in my mind. I feel disgusted !! I feel ashamed of my existence. I have no one to share my pain with. It's not that you all do not love or will not be ready to listen to my share of problems, but the point is that each time I somehow muster up some courage to tell you all of this, I fail ; I fail miserably in being able to tell you what I have to say and all that difficulty gathered courage goes in vain. I don't want this "secret" to be disclosed to anyone because I am very well aware of the fact that the moment this bitter truth of my life will be disclosed, all it will do is to bring loads and loads of disgrace to my family. I do not care about what people have to say about me because these years have thought me to all bear all possible pain and torture without any rebel but what I cannot tolerate is to see my parents and sister to bear any kind of shame or insult because of me. You know very well that the dignity and respect of my parents is what matters to me the most. Moreover, the disclosure of this truth may cause harm to my soulmate, my best friend, my confide, in short, the person who is my life - my sister.
But, will it even help if I let this secret our ? NO. NEVER..... Because all this "respected" society would do is to blame me and only me for the mess I am presently in. People will look down upon me as weak person, a person too weak to have stood up to fight against the wrong, too weak to have put up a brave flight. I will be looked down upon as a filthy creature, an impure soul !!
I am tired ; tired of this extremely painful and disgusting life. I am a broken soul; one that has been broken beyond repair. It is now time to stop this all. To live this disgraceful and torturous live , it is better to die. Yes, DEATH is the the only way by which I can free myself from this torture and the burden that I have borne upon my chest so far.

I am sorry Mom, Dad and Di(elder sister) for acting like such a weak human who failed to face this harsh reality of life and ran away; far away like a coward. I might prove to be a black sheep. This decesion of mine might make people question about my upbringing but believe me, after having tolerated this pain and guilt for seventeen years now, I have lost all the courage to fight back. I am extremely sorry for taking this drastic step. I love you all enought to not hurt you and leave you all shattered, but it would be easy for you to go through the pain of my death which will be there for some years than to go through a series of lifelong taunts and insult of being the family of a SEXUALLY ABUSED BOY. I shall not tell you all the person who did all this because to know that someone very close to you has done this to me would only break your heart. Neither do I want you and and specially Di to be any kind of problems.

I wish to take birth as a PURE soul and get all of you in my life in my next birth( however after having lost faith in this concept of karma and rebirth during these years I think that this thought of mine would just remain a fantasy, but if it ever happens to turn to be true, I sincerely wish to take rebirth as your son ).

With this I end this letter here. All I would say is....." I love you all and would always be grateful to have had you in my life." ....

BUT....

I QUIT
Your loving SON/BROTHER

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So here it is, the first part of the book.
I hope that it is upto your expectations.
Do leave some food for thought !!

✓Thank you.✓

~~ Astha