Hearts On Fire

Chapter 3

Chapter 3 (Mild Smut)

~~~~~~~~~

Zed's P.O.V

~~~~~~~~~~

Hanging out with Danz really got my mind off of Aaron ignoring me but now that I'm on my way back to our room, I feel terrible. What did I do wrong? I didn't mean to let it slip, it was am accident. I did not mean to tell management that we are engaged. I bet he hates me now. I sigh.

I walk into our room to see Aaron lying down on the bed. "Hey baby," I say, sitting down next to him, rubbing his back.

"Hey," he mumbles and faces me. "I'm sorry about earlier. It's just that I was angry that I have to have a beard and I really didn't want them to know that we were engaged yet," Aaron says. I lie down next to him, smiling a bit. "I love you so much Zed, and it's not fair that our relationship has to be hidden away. I want to be able to hold your hand and kiss you in public. I just want to act like a couple with you," he sighs.

"I want to act all coupley with you too but this band is really important. We have finally got big everywhere and I don't want anything to get in the way of that. I love you so much as well. We've been together for 10 years, since you were 11 and I was 13. I think we can get through a few years of this struggle. We'll be okay baby." I say, placing a kiss on his lips. I crawl on top of him, straddling his waist. I cup his face, pressing light kisses to his nose, his cheeks, his forehead, his chin and then finally his lips. "I.Love.You." I say in between kisses. I trail my hands down his shirt and then I slide it underneath, tracing his abs. His eyes were closed, a little smile on his face. I reach up and pinch his nipple, knowing that they're very sensitive. He gasps and his eyes fly open.

"Zed!" he squeaks. "Stop! Not the nipples!" I smirk and twist his nipple earning more gasps from his mouth.

I slide my hands from under his shirt and I tug at the hem of it. He gets the idea and he takes it off. I lean down and I take his nipple into my mouth. I start to suck and flick my tongue over it, earning lots of moans and whimpers from him. I pull off and kiss up and down his chest until I get to his belt buckle. There's a prominent bulge in his jeans. I bite my lip. I've never seen him have a hard on before. It's weird but I haven't. We've never done anything sexual but kissing and that's not really sexual. We haven't even seen each other naked.

I look up at him. He's biting his lip and he has his eyes shut tight. I feel bad but I can't go on. I'm really scared. I want to go further but I can't. I've always wanted to wait until I was married to do it but he looks really needy. "Babe," he whines.

"Y-yes?"

"Don't just leave me like this. It's not a nice thing to do. I need you," my eyes widen.

"I-I can't. Not yet. I can't do anything." He groans and pulls me up to him for a heated make out session. He starts to grind his hips up against mine while we kiss. He grabs my bum, pulling me down on him making me moan. I pull away, breathing heavily, staring at him. "Aaron I can't do this," I break free of his grip and I get off of the bed.

"What, why? Did I do something wrong?"

"No... it's just... I-I can't go any further... I'm scared," I whisper.

"Zed, you don't have to be scared. It's me of all people. Why would I hurt you? I'm in love with you babe. I wouldn't even think of hurting you. I just want to go further in our relationship. All we do is kiss and we're getting married for crying out loud!"

"That's the thing, Aaron. Since I was a kid I've always wanted to wait until I was married. I never thought I'd get married because gay marriage wasn't legal but now it is and I want to wait," Aaron sighs and nods.

"Alright, I understand. I'll wait for you. If it's your wish that we wait, we'll wait but at least let me see you in all of your glory. Let's go further than just kissing, it doesn't have to be sex. I want to see your body, all of it. I want to see you naked," I blush at that.

"B-but that's embarrassing," I mumble. Truthfully, I just don't want him to see all my scars and new cuts. He doesn't know that I hurt myself. I've hidden it very well for the longest time. I don't plan on him finding out anytime soon. "It'll spoil the surprise for we make love," Aaron pouts.

"Please? For me?" he gives me his puppy-dog look. No one can resist it.

"Fine," I sigh, take off my shirt and I look down, embarrassed. I hear Aaron gasp. "Zed! Why would you do this to yourself?!" I bet he thinks that I'm ugly now. Just that thought brings tears to my eyes and I get off the the bed and I run into the bathroom, slamming the door shut and locking it. "Zed open the door!" Aaron shouts.

"No! Just leave me alone!" I scream. For what I'm assuming is the next couple of hours, Aaron tried to get me to come out of the bathroom. I end up falling asleep on the floor.

〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰

I wake up, remembering why I was on the bathroom floor. I unlock the door to find Aaron sleeping on the floor against the wall by the bathroom. He stayed out here all night waiting for me. I lift him up and carry him to the bed. I lie down next to him, cuddling into his side.