This thing stress me out.
I feel like I want to give up.
My heart beat so fast.
I'm disappointed with myself.
I'm always be on top.
But now everything change.
People can be so scary sometimes.
I even scared with people around me.
I feel like I want to cry but I'm tired of it.
Is it me who change or the world already change?
I make my parents disappointed with me.
They have high hopes on me but I just keep crushing it.
I feel guilty everytime they said that I'm going to improve next time.
I feel guilty everytime they give me presents even though I'm not doing good in studies.
I hate it when people give me fake smile and said that I'm going to improve next time.
I know they are laughing inside and they are satisfied to beat me.
I'm tired of this.
Maybe I should shut up and build a wall around me.
No one will know my feeling and emotions.
Even when I'm breaking,I won't let them know.
Even when I'm getting into depression again,I won't tell them.
People come and betrayed me.
I went through so much that I'm sick of it.
Sick of getting played.
Sick of getting pitied.
Sick of fake friends.
But most of all...
I'm sick for being me.
I'm tired on pretending...
Even being fake make you broken...
