I am smiling, again.
Even though I don't feel like smiling anymore. It hurts... it really hurts worse when I am not smiling
The pain. The pain is so unbearable.
But there are good days and bad days, and I pray every night that maybe tomorrow it would be a better day.
Because, honestly, it has been weeks since I had a good one... Since we had a normal day.
We; us
We used to be so in love.
Well, I love him... it's just that these past few days have been quite stressful for both of us. Actually mostly for him tho
He just doesn't deal really good with stress, that's all.
And I keep messing up everytime...
Its my fault, like he says.
Every problem, that may be economic, romantic, or involve with our long term relationship, is like a dot of black ink on a with sheet of paper.
A delicate paper that will crumble even at the slightest touch. And, as always, when I try to clean it up, that ink just spreads more and more.
So much that the white paper is completely dirty with my desperate fingerprints. And everytime he founds out of my mess, his actions cut and break holes on the paper...
So, yes. The paper is like our relationship lately. So full of holes and crumble corners. So fragile that not even paper tape will fix. So tinted with darkness that I can't even see the whiteness anymore
A huge sighed left my mouth thinking about this new metaphor
"I am pathetic"
Actually, I am implying it wrong.
The truth is that the white fragile paper its me inside this relationship. And, he... he would be the substance that keeps making me dirty, suffer, and breaking me
He is like black ink for me.
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Like a Butterfly || YOONMIN (On Hold)
De Todo"so much of what we learn about love is taught by people who never really loved us" a ff where Jimin is trapped in an abusive relationship and Yoongi falls in love with him at first sight. But, does Jimin really wants to be saved?
