Beyond the Fame

6

Four Women by Nina Simone

Nomi

I let out a sigh as I finished putting the last of my stuff in my new closet. My new place was finally finished, except for the few album pictures and accolades that were going to be hung up and placed. I walked over and plopped on my bed my phone dinged making me roll over.

Justin:

Hey gorgeous.

I smiled and felt a flutter in my chest.

Me:

Hey, can you come over?

I really hoped he said yes, I really didn't want to be alone right now. This new place was so big that it made me feel so lonely.

Justin:

I'll be over in 10.

I smiled, Justin and I have been hanging out a lot lately. It's been about five days since the incident and we haven't talked about it once even with the media constantly trying to dig around for more details. And I was grateful for that, and honestly my feelings for Justin has grown more and more each day without me even noticing it. Sometimes until he leaves I realize how much I miss being around him.

I didn't realize I was daydreaming for so long until I heard a knock on my door. I walked down my many steps to open my front door to reveal the boy I think about almost 24/7. "Hey, come in." I said opening the door wider so he can step in.

"So this is it?" he said walking up the steps but stoppig allowing me to lead him.

"Uh yeah, this is my new crib. It's not entirely finished though as you can tell." I said pointing to the large picture frames.

"I think its nice." he smiled and lightly took my hand in his. I turned to him and immediately my lips were met with his, and I wasted no time returning it back.

After a few seconds he pulled away, "So what shall we do?"

I shrugged, "I don't know I kinda wanted to chill out, if that's okay. I really just didn't want to be alone." He smiled before placing a soft kiss on my lips, then leading me over to my couch. pulling me down next to him.

We sat there in silence, just listening to the music playing throughout the house in the background. "So how come you're here all alone, don't you have a best friend or something?" Justin question stroking his thumb on the back of my hand.

"What, you don't like hanging out with me?" I joked giving him a slight shove.

"Nooo, just wondering."

I scooted closer to him, "Well, the answer to that is no not really."

"Why not?"

"My mum never really allowed it, said they were just going to hold me back. Besides I never lived anywhere long enough when I was little to maintain a friend anyways." I laughed. "What about you?"

He looked up in the air and then back at me,"Well, I have two friends Chaz and Ryan. They come back and forth from Canada from time to time." I nodded. "So please tell me what does Nomi Clark want most right now, in this moment?"

I looked up in the air pretending to think, "A vacation."

"Well, I guess we have the same wants accept for me that one's second."

I furrowed my eyebrows, "What's your first?"

He smirked,"For you to kiss me " I smiled and leaned in pressing my lips to his. He brought his hand up to the side of my face pulling me closer. Oh how I loved this..

'Come on boy, come on boy.'

The sound of my voice started to play on the speakers causing Justin to pull away slightly. I scoffed and shook my head grabbing the remote about to change it when Justin stopped me. "No, hold on. I wanna hear it." I looked at him and rolled my eyes smiling leaning back and listening to it with him.

'Come on boy, put your face in this,'

I winced at my lyrics. "Put your face where?" he teased. I pushed him and joined his laughter.

"Look I didn't write it okay?" I defended.

"Alright, alright."

"Now I know you don't know nothing about this." I took the remote and switched it to my favorite playlist.

'My hair is long, between two worlds, I do belong'

There was no way he was going to know who- "Nina Simone." I looked up at him in shock and he gave me a small smile.

"That voice. All that....pain and power. Like she lived every lyric." He hummed in agreement. "I wish I could have songs like that."

"So write one." My eyes met his and I shook my head.

"No one cares what I have to say." I said looking down.

"Im listening." I brought my eyes back up and saw his emotions of interest and realized how much he meant it. I stood up motioning him to follow, and into my bedroom. I cant believe I'm doing this...

I reached under my bed and pulled out the shoe box that held... well everything. I sat criss cross applesauce on the floor, Justin sat across from me and I placed the box in the middle.  I took the top off placing it to the side and filded my hands in my lap.

I looked at Justin as he picked a couple peices out of the box. "What are these?"

"Ideas...they come into my head constantly all day long." I leaned forward and read one of the ones in his hand. "Its not my business what you had with her. And now I see that you're not free of her. And I was foolish to compete with her, but my fractured heart cries, choose me..."

He took a moment before saying,"That's beautiful, forreal. I mean..." he let out a breath and took another look at the paper."You know at first I thought you were going to show me something weird, like dirty magazines or something."  I just gave him a look and laughed as he did as well.

After Justin snooped through some more of my lyrics, Scooter called and said he needed Justin back at his place. So therefore he had to leave.

I walked him down to the front door and we stopped before he exited. He grabbed my waist and pulled me into him as he pressed his lips to mine repeatedly. I laughed at his actions, breaking us apart just slightly.

"So I'm not one to follow this sort of thing but.." I motioned him to continue, kinda nervous as to what came to mind at this moment in that head of his. " What's up with you and Kid?"

Exactly something I didn't want to hear. I sighed looking down struggling with my answer, "We're sort of together."

"Together?"

I looked at his chocolate orbs, "Look it started as a label thing."

"A label thing?"

"For press.."

His eyes squinted, "You get down like that?"

"Look I should've said something." I said grabbing his hand but he pulled it away. Ouch... "But I didn't know what was up with us before."

"And what is up?" I looked at him, at lost for words. How was I supposed to know what we were? I already know I have feelings for him no doubt. But I didn't know about him. I didn't know anything really.

Justin stepped back slowly doing a nod with his head. "I gotta go." With that he turned around, and started walking out the door.

"Justin...Justin wait." He ignored me though and instead got into his lambo and starting the car, leaving me in the doorway.

What was I supposed to say? I didnt know what he wanted my answer to be. But I guess something was better than silence.

I closed my door and walked to my window folding my arms as I watched him drive off. And once again, I was alone...