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Babe don't do this

THIS MAY BE TRIGGERING TO SOME READERS. METIONS SELF HARM. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK

Brendon was following behind me and was banging on the door begging me me to let him in but all I had to say right now was

"BRENDON WHERE ARE YOUR RAZORS"

I scampered around the room searching through cupboards while I heard Brendon shouting through the door and banging on it trying to break the lock.

"Babe don't do this...not now...It will be better...I promise"

"Will it brendon - really - you think that when I have a mother who hates me and she doest support this decision to have a child"

"Look Sidney please don't go back to cutting I know that having your mother by your side through this would be better but I promise we will be able to provide for Emma just as well as if we did have your mother on our side"

I stopped searching, realising it was hopeless. I sat down and began to sob. I reached up and unlocked the door. Brendon ran to my side and hugged me. He kept saying things like he loved me and we will get through this trying to calm me but it was no use. I sobbed more and more and more.

I didn't want to do do it anymore. My mother hates me. My dad died when I was young. My brother is in jail cause I grassed up on him. It's just not worth it anymore. I have no family anymore. None at all. Just brendon and Emma. To be honest I don't even have Emma. And if I did end it all they would probably save her her in the hospital. Brendon can move on. It will all be fine.

"SIDNEY"

I looked up to see brendon sobbing next to me with an expression of shock.

"WHAT...Sidney don't do any of that"

What's he on about

"All that that you have been thinking you were saying out loud"

Shit

"Look Sidney i love you and if you were to do anything like that that I would never move on not ever. I need you and emma you're my 2 girls and I love you so much. Just think you had tod grow up without a father. Well imagine growing up without a mother. You don't want little Emma tod have to feel that pain you did"

"I guess but my dad died. When I was so young I don't remember him so I was never hurt by the fact I didn't have a dad"

"Sidney don't think like that also think of all the fans who love you you can't do this to them and also also don't want to have a to live without you I won't survive it I will end up joining you and then Emma will have to go up for adoption. "

"Yeah. I don't want that"

"Then let's not tink like that let's go calm down watch a nice movie ans go to sleep okay?"

"Okay- thank you"

"Anything for my beautiful girl"