My life (just plain boring)

Crush

(This chapter is for Saphy, so she knows who my 2nd crush is: )

Ever had a crush? 

Well I have had a lot of them. And right now I got a crush on 2 people. (I hope they are not gonna read this >///<) One of them is my classmate, his name is Bram and he is 16 years old. (might be 17 now, but I am too shy to even ask his birthday). And the other one I don't even know the name of... I might not even see him ever again.. He is 25 and he is a painter. He painted the flat I live in a few days ago. 

Ugh, I have no clue how to tell Bram I like him. I plan on doing it the next weeks. Before the summer holidays start. Then if he doesn't like me back, he has 6 weeks to get used to the idea of me liking him. Then it won't be as awkward. 

And the painter boy... well, I just like him. He is so smiley. Like, I met him on the stairs and he was petting a cat I know. That cats comes around a few times a week. Turned out it was his cat x'D And he was just talking to me and we both got red. Then after school I met him again and we greeted each other, I felt butterflies in my belly. The next Monday he came into our house to paint the balcony, and I (goddammit) had to go to school at that moment. But we looked at each other, got red and smiled. Then 2 days later my mom and I went to buy ice for them (there were 2 painters), but they had already left. I felt so sad, I might never see him again...

As for Bram, I met him when I transferred to this school at the start of this school-year. We had to go to this trip to get to know your classmates. And I was shy so I just went to sit next to some boys instead of girls who want to talk about everything imidiently  (SAPHY, help how do I write that??). So the boy next to me probable felt how uncomfortable I was, so he tried to ignore me. I was so happy. And he was so nice and cool. I heard that he had to redo this year and he already knew our coach because she was his coach the year before as well. I could just listen to him all day.. But then we had to go on that trip. And ofc I wasn't in his group.. ;w; But the day was pretty okay. I enjoyed it in the end. Even tho I was thinking about 'him' the whole time :')

I just don't know what to do when I love someone...

[I'll see if I can add something about my story with Bram some other time]

(Also don't mind the typos, I am really tired, had to do Cito tests for 2 days and I have only seen Bram twice, so that doesn't really help either. The only thing good about everything rn is that the moon is full today :')