Your Savior; A Rocky Lynch Imagine

Chapter 18

Rocky sat still in the waiting room with his face down in his hands.
So many thoughts were swarming his mind. Thoughts about his little baby girl (or boy) that he'll never be able to hold. Thoughts about you, the woman he loves, and the fact that you lost a part of you. Not only your body, but your heart. Thoughts about marriage, and if it was the right time to ask -- not if.... When it was the right time to ask -- if ever. Thoughts that made him want to rip the whole waiting room to shreds. Thoughts that made him confused, scared, angry, and even sick. He turned to go to the bathroom when the nurse wheeled you out into the waiting room. He ran to you and, being careful of your sensitive areas, embraced you in what felt like the longest hug you've ever had. One hand on your back, and the other on the back of your head, he held you tight. Holding your breath was the only way you could keep the tears from flowing, so you held you breath... for what seemed like 15 minutes. He let go of you, and stared with his bloodshot eyes into your scared, tear stained eyes, hoping that you both might get out of that dreadful place.

You could only hold back your tears for one more moment.... then burst into them again as Rocky put his wet lips to your cheek.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." You pant as you try and calm yourself down.

"No, no... Shh it's okay sweetie." Rocky says as he wipes your everfalling tears from your cheeks. "Let's just go back to the hotel and rest a little while, it's been a long day." 

"Okay..." You say as you cling to Rocky's side. 

He walks you to the car, and opens up your door on the passenger side, and you slide in. He walks to his side and stops. He doesn't get in the car. He rests his arms on top of the car and sets his head on them. He starts bawling right there, in the middle of the hospital parking lot. He kicks the bottom of his car, and makes a dent. "I don't give a fuck." He murmurs.

After a minute, he wipes his tears and then gets in the car. He shuts the door and starts the car. You look at Rocky and put your hand on his shoulder. "We can go through this together, we'll be okay. When I was in the room, and they were *sniffs* taking her out, I felt a part of my soul leave my body. At that moment, I felt stone cold. There is nothing in the world that feels as bad as having your child being taken out of you, under no control whatsoever. I've never felt so much pain in my entire life. Not only physically... but emotionally to the extreme. And I'm sorry that I'm putting you through it too. I've never seen you cry Rocky, and it's not something that I want to see you do ever again. I don't want you to be unhappy. I want you to be happy, I want US to be happy." You say as you lay your head down on your lap. "Why did this have to happen?" 

"I'm sorry babe." Rocky says. "I'm so so sorry that you had to go through that. That must be so traumatic for you to have to live with. Let's just go back to the hotel and just... stay for a few days. We don't have to go anywhere, or do anything." 

"Okay." You mutter through your hands. 

Rocky drives you to the hotel, and you avoid all of the people, and you avoid stairs. You take the elevator up to your room and collapse on the bed. 

You cover your face and start to cry all over again. Rocky looks at you laying helplessly on the bed, and lays on the bed to comfort you. He puts his arm around you, and tries to comfort you -- but then it hits him again. He lost a baby. He tries to hold back his tears as long as possible. He doesn't want to keep crying in front of you... but eventually he bursts. Holding it in hurts too much. 

You turn over and lay in Rocky's warm embrace as you both weep for the loss of your baby. 
You fall asleep, hoping that you'll both wake up with amnesia, and never feel this way ever again. 

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Wow, y'all don't know how sorry I am for taking this long to post the fucking chapter. SO Sorry. I'm hoping to post at least a chapter a week. But as far as promises go.... idk. 

And I'm sorry it's a loooot shorter than all of my other chapters. 

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