Love Lies (Norminah)

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⚠️ WARNING. USE OF SELF HARM. IF YOU ARE NOT MENTALLY STRONG. PLEASE DO NOT READ. I DO NOT WANT TO TRIGGER ANYONE. ⚠️

Normani's POV

"Dinah. What do you want now?"

As I had just woken up from my usual 4:00 nap of  the day...

Dinah had showed up to my door for the 3rd day this week.

With my favorite flowers

"I don't know how many days it'll have to take for you to forgive me. But I won't stop trying to gain your trust back if it takes till the day I die" Dinah said as she handed me the flowers

I looked down at the flowers, "thank you" I smiled weakly

I attempted to close the door but Dinah placed her foot in the way.

"Mani-" she said

"Normani" I corrected

Dinah moved her foot back and continued to speak again, "I didn't mean for you to find out like this Normani" Dinah said as she forced herself in

"Dinah what are you doi-"

"This isn't me forcing you to believe me or make you feel like you have to take me back. But when I saw you in my mother's living room. With your makeup on. Attempting to cover your black eye. I made an oath that day Mani" she stopped

"And when I shook your hand Mani" Dinah said as she wiped her tears away.

"Dinah-"

"Your marks mani. Your cuts. I saw them and you attempted to cover them up. And I told myself. Even if we were friends. I'd make sure you were the happiest person on this earth. Because I did not want to see you with new marks. And I'm scared to ask you this. But have you-" she paused

"Was I the cause of you doing it again if so?" She said as her voice cracked.

"I've only done it twice since it happened. It's not only because of you though D-"

"No. I hurt you Normani. I promised myself that if I ever hurt you. I didn't deserve you back. I don't deserve you. I hurt you. I hurt all of you. I hurt plenty of women and I can't seem to accept the fact that I'm a monster. I hurt you Mani-" Dinah cried out

I walked towards her and grabbed her face

"You're not a monster. It's in the past. The only reason I was so triggered Dinah Jane. Was because, I'm in that book Dinah. Even though there's no words that sound like any of the other girls. I'm still in there. I was frightened that maybe I interrupted you while you were about to write something. You're not a monster Dinah."

"I hurt you Mani" she cried as she shook her head in my hands

I wiped her tears, "I hate seeing you cry. You're to beautiful to be crying babygirl. Just stop talking. Everyone makes mistakes sweetheart. Come sit down and we'll talk. Let me get you some water. You sound horse" I said as I stepped on my tippy-toes and kissed her forehead

She smiled weakly, just like I did before...

"Thank you Mani" Dinah said as she sipped her water. "I'm sorry. Once again. I'll say a million times more. I'm sorry"

I grabbed her hand, "it's okay Dinah. Just-just give me some time please"

"I understand. I've done something's while we haven't been talking" Dinah said.

I removed my hand quickly as I was scared of what she was about to say

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