Love Is Bliss (Halsey & G-eazy)

Panic Attack

(A/N) okay so ummmmmmmmmm yeah I actually don't know how panic attacks actually work, so if this isn't really one, then I'm sorry, you can tell me and I'll change it to something else, but other than that enjoy this story based on a few facts and made up fiction:

Gerald pov:

I looked back at the crowd and saw it. I saw the crowd of people fucking leaving. Not just 5 or 6 people, more like 20 to 30. It was my birthday night, and Ash was singing with the crowd Happy Birthday to me. I tried not to seem out of it, but my mind was crowded with the people that were leaving.

After getting off the stage, I felt my hands shake, suddenly I could barely breath.

"I need to lie down" I said to Ash as she grabbed my arm to lead me to the bus.

"Okay, you can sleep on the bus" she smiled.

"No, like I need to go back to the Hotel."

"The hotel? Okay, um I'll talk to the driver, he can take us"

I grit my teeth as I sat on the couch on the tour bus. I didn't know what was wrong with me, but the crowd that was leaving suddenly triggered something in me. I just felt like I wasn't good enough. So that's why people left. It was all my fault.

Ashley sat next to me on the ride to the hotel, on her phone, while I just shut my eyes and put my head on her shoulder to gain some peace of mind.

Once we got to our hotel room, I collapsed on the bed. Kicking off my shoes, I slid under the covers and let go of the deep breath I didn't know I was holding.

"You ok?" Ashley asked me, looking up from her phone.

"Yeah" I said quietly. But I wasn't ok. I was shaking, having short breath, and I was just scared. Scared that tomorrow I would wake up and this lifestyle I lived would all just go away. All the hard work I put into it would go to waste because people didn't care anymore.

"Hey Ash?" I asked her.

"Yeah?" She called from the bathroom.

"Can you go get dinner or something? I just want some alone time" I said. I didn't want to hurt her feelings, I just really felt like being alone.

I could hear her at a loss for words.

"Yeah, Okay. I'll go order some food and find Matt or something and go hang out with him then. I'll be back soon"

"Okay" I whispered.

She came out of the bathroom, gave me a quick kiss on the lips.

"I love you!" She smiled, before she left out the door.

How lucky was I to have her

I sat up on my bed, and just stared into the wall. What if I really lost it? Lost Ash, my friends, my family, my fans. I just felt like everyone was just done with me. Especially after the arrest, I just felt like everyone was so fucking disappointed in me and over all that shit, but then again, I was too.

Ashley pov:

I don't know what was wrong with Gerald. This was totally not something of that he would do. I checked my phone to see what the time was.

Shit, if he still wanted to hit the club to perform, were gonna be late. But I don't think he's feeling it today.

"Hey, Matt!" I yelled to his manager when I saw him headed to the tour bus.

"Ashley! Yeah, what's up? Where Gerald?"

"About that, can you cancel the club performances tonight?"