FINDING TOMMOROW

5

It is moment like this I am thrown back into the world I didn’t have a mother, tears stained my cheek, I remembered growing up, mothers came to drop their kids at school, we had activities that required mothers to attend, I always felt so alone and I cried during mother’s day I had nobody to make a card for make me breakfast or dressed me up, during all this my father was either out of the country or busy, I felt more like a rich orphan don’t get me wrong my father loves me he spoilt me with all the things money could buy but then money couldn’t buy the presence of a parent in one’s life, I always yearned for love by my parent but then Carries mother played some significant role in my life, I felt someone clean the tear from my eye, I am brought back to reality ‘she’s going to be fine’ Ms. Baker held my hand ‘Carrie is going through a lot, going to rehab’ the time seemed to stop and all the noise around me drained ‘Carrie never told me about a rehab’ I thought ‘she overdosed on drug, she was tested and the police department brought a letter’ Carrie never told me about such, I would have been there for her what are best friends for the doctor approached the both of us ‘ you can come in’ Ms. Baker looked at me ‘go in first you’re her mother, I am sure you’re the first person she would want to see’ from afar I saw someone who had an uncanning resemblance to Vince  but the person quickly passed ‘IVY snap out of it’
I lay soaked in my bath tub that Dominica prepared some minutes ago everything around me is weighing me down I needed some release  I stood up from the tub went into my room, I took my bag from my bed, I stopped by an adult shop and got myself a vibrator, the shop marveled me and I felt so uncomfortable buying this, the store woman had many piercing and tattoo, I could hear the unmistaken noise of a vibrator ‘now your disgusting’ the lady laughed ‘says the one buying the disgusting thing, that $15.99 missy and in case you wanna shove that thing down your ass, I suggest you purchase some lube and it’s just $4’ as she spoke she reached her climax and her body trembled, she opened her eye and in her left hand is the vibrator she was using to pleasure herself, I saw a group of ladies come out from a door covered in black, the lady eye followed my eye ‘that’s the pleasure room’; ‘the what I asked her’ she came in front of me ‘come leeme show you’ she opened the door inside revealed different from of torture, whips, clamps and in the middle are 4 machine like looking substance with a customed  made dildo’ I just stared in awe ‘this is the pussy driller 5000, is yours for $15 for an hour, she touched it ‘this bad boys can do wonders to your pussy, oh my Lord after the close
of work tonight am going to be your little mama tonight’ she said speaking to one of the machine, I noticed that one of the machine had two dildos ‘what’s that for’; ‘this bad boy is the crusher, you’ll stay in a doggy like position and this bad boy pumps into your ass and pussy at the same time’ I gulped ‘but you don’t seems like the girl who loves anal’ I just stared at the crusher, I imagined that thing pumping me to full ecstasy.
My body shook as I reached my climax, pleasure filled me as I cum all over my new toy ‘I am going to name you Alonso you bad little thing’ I placed my vibrator on the counter and began to rub on my clit in a circular position ‘this feels so good if only Alonso was really here rather than in a form of  vibrator’ I thought, I go out of the bath tub, got dressed in my night ware, my phone rang this an unknown number ‘don’t think I didn’t watch you work yourself moaning my name’ my breath hitched ‘Alonso’ I heard breathing by the other side and the call cut, I tried calling again but said the number no longer exist
Alonso
I watched her as she exited the adult shop earlier, who knew Christian Carrie is a drug addict, after that night I sent one of my men to pose as a worker in their house and set up security cameras in IVY’s room but I didn’t know that after that night of pure oral satisfaction, I created a little monster in IVY. Only I had the access to the cameras, she didn’t even know they were there, staring at her body gave me hard on all the time and don’t start me on the time she worked her fingers, she moaned my name at first ,I heard her moan my name during one of her sexual section, I had wanked to her fingering herself, we both cumed at the same time ‘soonest my dear, you are going to be riding my cock’ after that night I had to flee, Luca Dan fosta has been on my tail since we were barely 22 for the reason that I killed his elder brother, the fucktard deserved to die, he was selling information on me, I had seen him earlier, we both exchanged eye contact, I knew if I stayed around IVY her blood would be on my hand, and she is too beautiful to die, my heart is starting to feel something, I remember the day at the mall, I drank my coffee, wearing casual clothes so she couldn’t recognize me,  she took up to empty her trash, where she bumped into Vince but in factual Vince did it deliberately making her think she bumped into me, I told him after that night how I felt about IVY he looked at me briefly before he kissed her hand, I tightened my fist ‘wait till I get you’ I left the mall. It annoyed me to no dept. that Vince is getting slightly attracted to her, he had his men watching over her and so did mine, what I dint know is why, I just watched from a corner her perfect body, I wish I could go back to that night I would have fucked her senseless staining my dick with virgin blood.
IVY
I and Carrie just stared at each other without uttering a word for over 3 minutes since I entered her room, I could see she is nervous as she is playing with her finger a habit she had if she is either afraid or nervous ‘ I am sorry’ she said breaking the awkward silence ‘since when’ is all I could reply her ‘over a year ago’ unbelievable ‘did you take our friendship to be a joke’ she wanted to say something or defend herself I cut her off ‘do you know how worried, I was or your mum uh!! She works two jobs daily to provide for the two of you Carrie what were you thinking’ tears dropped down to her cheek ‘this is unbelievable’ I stood up placing my hand on my forehead and I paced around the room ‘why didn’t you tell me I could have helped you or get someone to help you’ there is still no response from her ‘Carrie I am highly disappointed in you’ I walked out of her room then I bumped into Vince ‘Vince’ I say with teary eyes ‘shhh darling’ he hold me; I cry into his shoulder, he says  soothing words to comfort me ’cry it out IVY u’ve been strong for so long’ I cry my eye out, when I remove my face, I see the stain marks from the combination of  both my mascara  and  tears ‘I ruined your suit’ he cup my cheek ‘at this moment it’s my suit you are thinking about I have more suits than teeth in my mouth’ I laugh ‘what are you doing here’ remembering where we are ‘did you come to visit someone perhaps a family or friend’ he nod.
Vince
Seeing IVY earlier with tears about to spill out reminded me of how fragile humanity can be especially after my heart started beating for one ‘let go get dinner’ she smiled in response, we drove a little smile until we spotted a reesturant nearby, it is a rather fancy reesturant, I could hear the soft play of the piano ‘let’s enter’ IVY held my hand and we entered, the once occupied piano bench is empty there is a jar by the floor apparently ‘you’ve been staring at the piano for a while do you play’; ‘no’ I quickly replied that night came flashing to my head ‘so you don’t mind sitting by my side then’ she stood up held her hand out ‘come on lets go’  she dropped a $1 into the jar and sat down ‘come’ she patted the bench ‘I grew up playing the piano, no one taught me how to, I just engaged myself during my spare time with YouTube videos on how to play the piano’ her delicate hand touched the white key, I felt my chest tightened, I felt like I couldn’t breathe any longer
‘you are my everything’
‘My bright tomorrow’
‘I never knew you’
‘Could affect me so such’
‘So tell me baby’
Did I tell you how much I love you
Did I tell you how much I need you
Without you my life really have no meaning

As she sang, my finger reached for the keys flashes of that night invaded my brain, my head felt heavy and dizzy, her face came to my mind the day we met how I played the piano for her, she was my first audience and came for all my shows, the way she clapped, I led her to the stage, she was good at dancing ballet, a natural, I watched her at her dance recital, I felt soft fingers tug my arm ‘are you all right’ she looked worried for me I touched her cheek ‘you sang beautifully’ she smiled ‘thank you Vince’
IVY
I knew something was up with Vince he seemed different and almost fell on our way out he drove me home and we said good bye, now am currently on my bed doing nothing just scrolling through contacts on my phone, I saw mom I sighed when I was lonely I called her number and listened to her voice note
‘Hey caller it’s me Clara, I am not picking its either am busy at work, sleeping or with my baby IVY’ I smiled ‘mom I miss you’ I whispered my phone vibrated as it is on my ear, it is a text message