Sweetheart; Phan AU

😢Sad little

Trigger warning, this includes cutting, and depression

*Phils POV*

I quickly run upstairs, and open his door and see Dan laying on his bed, clutching his Stuffed Animal, with blood on his wrists. "Dan, DAN, why did you do this" I say with tears running down my cheeks as I hold dan in my arms. "I-I don't wike this world anymore....I'm sowwy daddy" he says softly. What do I do? My little is here all depressed and I feel powerless. I know! I should wash it and bandage it. I carry dan downstairs "Dan, you're going to be ok! Stay alive for daddy!". I sit him on the counter and grab the bandage. "Ok Dan this might sting a little" I wash his wrists and out a bandage over it.

"I'm sowwy" he says. I sigh, "Let's just cuddle, and watch cartoons", his eyes light up and then we go to the couch. I turn on the tv, and put my arms around Dan, an hour later, he dozes off. I carry him to his room. I take away most of the sharp objects lying around, but while I was searching for all the scissors and stuff, I found a razor. My eyes widened, but I just threw it away completely. And for those sharp things, I kept it in a box because he would probably use them for arts and crafts.

As I left I heard him, he said "Daddy, you didn't kiss me good night" with a pouty face. I walk over to him and kiss him goodnight. I walk to my room and just stared at the ceiling, why would he do such thing, he always seemed so happy, and cheerful. I hated that he had to live with depression, I hated that he was unhappy, and I mostly hated that I couldn't help him during these times.

I then slept soundly. When I woke up, I went to Dan's room. I touched his nose and said "Wake up bub, I need to ask you something" he slowly woke up. "Good morning, daddy" he said happily. Ok I have to muster up a lot of confidence for this but I have to spill it. "Dan, I think you should get a therapist, I think it will help you, and plus I can learn more about you", he went silent for a moment, but then he said "O-ok, when do we go?", "whenever you want bub" I start caressing his cheek, and see him smile.

*Skippity slip the time*

As we walk into the office, it seemed like a very calming place. When we checked in we waited for 15 minutes and they brought us in. "So hello, my name is Miss Anderson, and I shall be your therapist", she seemed really nice, and I trust her with my baby boy.

"Ok" he said quietly. "So Dan, let's start with questions, the first one is have you had little, to no interest in the hobbies you usually love?"

"Uh, actually yes. I use to love making videos, and filming, but I kinda lost interest". "Ok then, have you ever thought of suicide, or planned about it." She asks. "I-I planned it 3 months ago, but couldn't pull myself to do it" I say quietly. "Have you been finding yourself getting little, or too much sleep?" "Yes, it's kind of an off and on cycle."

I sigh, how much longer? After a few more questions she says "Dan, I'm afraid you have clinical depression, and I'm going to prescribe you anti depressants, to see if that helps. Check in on 1 week." After that I left, and walk up to Phil who was on his phone.

"C-can we go now." It was more of a statement. We walk out, and the drive back was a comforting silence, while I look outside the window. Now we arrive home, and we just go to his bedroom, and cuddle. I doze off into sleep now.

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Ok I just have to thank you guys, there's only like 4 chapters....and I have 80 something reads. I KNOW ITS CHEESY BUT THANK YOU. Anyways the QOTD is

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