a letter to you | e.d

letter four

hails,

i'm not angry.
just upset.

i don't blame you for leaving me for my own brother, i'm a disappointment. everything i say or do will never live up to what grayson can do, and you've showed me that.

there was one thing my brother didn't have, that i did. and i thought he'd never have it.

but now he does.

he has it, and the most painful thing is that i have to see you again. family dinners, events and parties, even christmas'. he'll bring you, just like i once did.

it won't be you on my arm, it'll be you on his.

and i understand why.

it's always him.

i just need to accept that.

so i'm not angry.
i forgive you.
because even though you did all wrong, i still believe it's me at fault. and that's a battle i have to fight on my own.

- ethan