Before I met you, I always had a tendency to hide my smile and control my laughter. I'd always worry about saying the right thing and my deep voice and stumbling over my words when I talk. I never understood what it was like to meet someone and instantly feel like you've been missing them your entire life. I never trusted anyone enough right away to let them see my crooked smile or hear me talk without hesitation. And I wasn't looking for you, either. In fact, I was looking to get out of the place I was in as quickly as possible. But then I met you, and suddenly I had no desire to leave. With you, I feel like I don't have to pretend anymore. I can smile as big as I want to, I can laugh as loud as I please. And I don't have to worry about saying the right thing because I know you never gave a shit about the mumbling or the stuttering. You never cared that I wasn't into hockey and I didn't understand football. You never batted an eye if my hair was messy or I had my glasses on. You understood me without me having to explain myself. I've always had a hard time trusting people and you were no exception. I guess that's why I wasn't surprised when you decided I wasn't worth it anymore. All of the baggage I come with, all I've done to interfere with your relationships; none of it is worth it to you anymore. I thought we could make something out of this. I thought this was you and I against the world. Against everyone who told us it couldn't be because of who you were and how I was. I guess I was wrong again.
