Shingeki no Kemono - Attack on Monsters

Chapter 5 - Friends

Have a pretty depressing chapter. Don't worry it'll get worse.... but also briefly better.

Canon Levi has nerves of steel... This one doesn't..
Throw in a cute Eren and he has ANXIETY.

Welp..... the song is the overall mood Levi is in for the whole chapter... despite the small part in the middle where... well he isn't so 'alone'. Read for yourself. GIVE THIS MAN SOME LOVE.

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The captain was still beating himself up about it hours later. The nervousness and added tension of the cadets and even some other soldiers around were unnecessary fueling his disgruntlement. He couldn't even mind Hange's pressence anymore, which somehow befriended him without him even knowing about it. His usual insensitive and confident behaviour couldn't calm his nerves and there was only so much to be comfortable in the captain's skin. What was left, was a lonely, frustrating battle of a life. Each time he passed the cadet his whole chest contracted painfully, but as usually nothing would show on his face, he made sure of that.

Ignoring him proved to be better then accidentally catching his glare and feeling even worse in his skin than already humanly possible. Mikasa tried to distract Eren, told him to let go, but he couldn't help to stare at the captain each time he was in sight.

At midday Levi thought he had done quite a good job of enduring all of this, thinking he was through the worst part and all left, was to train that ability, before he accidentally observed Eren for the first time, and NOT staring at him. The brown haired talked with his friends and looked visibly sad and bothered with sunken down head, making Levi abruptly grit his teeth, shoulders shaking from tension. The sensations threatened to overthrow him right in that instant and he quickly relocated in the hall, seething.

His own fist collided with his jaw so hard it made an ugly 'clacking' sound.

"What are you doing?"

Apparently commander Erwin had seen him, standing in the hall right behind him, making the other tense up even more, but more from embrassment as he quickly collected himself.

"Nothing." It was said in a typical Levi-way, no emotions involved and his weird posture the only thing giving it away. His body wasn't turned towards the other, arms squeezed in front of him.

"You just punched yourself. Are you alright?"

'No.'

"Why is that your business, huh?", his voice was monotone and neutral, but his sour expression told otherwise. He wondered that he hadn't noticed the other in the first place. Must have been sneaky.

The tall, stoic man only shrugged: "Just offering my adherence, Corporal."

"I think I'm old enough to take care of myself, thanks."

"You may are, but you don't look like that."

It wasn't clear if the blonde referred to his behaviour or bluntly to his appearience. It was offensive either way.

'FUCK OFF' "Excuse ME!?"

There was clear amusement written over the others face in a pretty self satisfied expression.

"Ease up, I just wanted you to stop pouting."

Levi's hands clenched into fists, angry tremors erupting from inside him as he growled: "Erwin, I swear if you wouldn't be commander....."